I know I should sleep now but I am waiting for my friend's phonecall. Wanted to speak to my friend before I fly off. But guess that silly cow is sound asleep. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you.
To my dearest love, sorry that I haven had the time to talk to you. Been really busy to have time for us. Sorry gotta hung up on you as my dad has his freaking dragon eyes fixed on me. He was on the verge of eating me up alive for talking on the phone before I could pack. Wanted to talk to you but guess you are drunk asleep. Hope you feel better when you wake up. Miss you. See you real soon.
Da Jie...you probably wont see this entry. But nonetheless thanks for being there for me & being so understanding. Was reading your blog & could feel as though you are right in front of me relating all your encounters. I miss you very much. It is sucky to know you cant be here for my graduation photoshoot. yes i know you think it sounds like wedding. Kaoz!
Puree & Pukey! Me & Josh are on damn freaking good term now. Hopefully, we become real close friend. Then he will be my first official gay friend. Then I can jio him out for shopping. So fun! Today some marketing girl from bridgestone was being bitchy with me. Hated the way she diao me as though I am so lowly just cos I work in the club that I have to serve her by getting her a chair? FAT HOPE!! & she doesnt even bother saying her P's & Q's.. Rude! So i get Josh to come down & bitch right in front of her. It was real hilarious how josh get even with her. Yes! Josh is ultimate. I LOVE JOSH! If you think falling for gay is sick, sue me...wahahahha
B2, try to stay out of freak accident while I am away. Just take good care of yourself over the weekend. Best if you just stay home. wahahha....cos freak things only happen to you. Anyway, dont play too much game. Sleep early & stay alert at work. Anything u can still sms me. I am not stingy like you to save sms money. Neither do i forget to reply ppl's sms. So yep. In any case of emergency, I will still be here but doubt u need it. BETTER DONT TRY TO BE FUNNY & CALL ME to ask where is nearest starbuck...
Take care peeps. Hopefully, I have a fruitful trip and a smooth-sailing journey with my dad. Will update on my trip when im back. Jus gotta tell myself to say excited about India jus so I wont be too uptight w my anal dad. Also, hope I come back without being so tired since I gotta go to work the next day.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Flying off in less than 6 hours time.....
Guess what?! Me & my dad are still not on a talking terms. Woooo~
I wonder how I am gonna survive there.
India is bad enough.
To make matter worse, I am going with unreasonable, demanding, grouchy old man who is obnoxiously rude & childish. & he thinks the world revolves around him just cos he is rich. That makes me SICK!
I swear to myself I will never marry a rich man. That makes me sick & make me want to look down on them. Got money no value! What is the point?!
Guess what?! Me & my dad are still not on a talking terms. Woooo~
I wonder how I am gonna survive there.
India is bad enough.
To make matter worse, I am going with unreasonable, demanding, grouchy old man who is obnoxiously rude & childish. & he thinks the world revolves around him just cos he is rich. That makes me SICK!
I swear to myself I will never marry a rich man. That makes me sick & make me want to look down on them. Got money no value! What is the point?!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Parents are so fucked up!
I agree totally with Pukey that nowadays it is extremely hard to be children of our parents. They are obnoxious, rude, unreasonable, demanding and have no manner. Just because they are parents they happily assume that they are entitled to our freedom as well as a say in everything including how hard we work at work. This is extremely annoying and it is really getting on my nerve. It is so hard to fathom them.
Last night, my dad gave me a call at my hp at 11plus. I didnt even know he touched down last night. I was in shock. Well! It was a nice greeting by my dad when the min the line was through, he was roaring over the phone. It was really annoying. The thing he said were really discouraging esp when im still stuck in the office at 11plus after walking the whole afternoon out in the sun from hotels to hotels to do some shit assignment that my boss asked me to do. & I have to rush back to office after that to run the event. & I have not eaten dinner. I am so fucking tired and I am not complaining. Neither do i ask for his understanding nor even try to understand. I also do not ask them to extend their empathy in anyway. All I ask for is to leave me alone and respect me, my jobscope and my choice.
Thanks to my parents, I find rich people really obnoxious and awfully rude. Just because he is freaking loaded, he thinks money is everything insulting all dignity that every job holds. Among many horrible things he said, the one that really make me give up on trying to communicate with him was that "how much are they paying you to make you work so long? Are you paid over-time? What kind of work are you doing till so late? Where are you screwing around? I dont care tomorrow you are not reporting to work!!" Then he hung up on me by slamming the phone real hard on the other end. Tell me how unreasonable is that when he never even gives me a fucking chance to speak cos he is talking at the speed of a machine gun. I am seriously wondering the kind of values he is instilling in me by saying all these. What kind of working attitude is he asking me to adopt? Is he asking me to be irresponsible? I just leave everything just so I can go home early and get screwed by him anyway? I really dont understand. Here I am working really very hard. Trying to do my best. I am also adjusting and trying to cope with the working life & it is hard enough. I am not even asking him to be supportive and encouraging. & he has to screw me like this. What a fucked up father I have?!
It is really ironic cos when I dont have a job, he gets so screwed up with me. Now that I have a job he is equally screwed. I have stop understanding them or even try to understand. It is so so annoying. Frankly speaking, it has been really a tough journey for me. Being apprehensive about my next stage of life and what i wanna do with my life as well as trying to appease my parents. I have been really depressed lately but I am not telling anyone nor showing it to anyone cos I need to stay strong. But being the closest people in this world to me, they are the one to just want me to fall and screw me time and again like this. It really drove me mad last night. It was so hard to suppress my feelings, still stand tall and smile the moment I entered the house only to be greeted by his angry look. I was too tired to be confronted. Thank god my mom drag him into the room. I was on the verge of breaking down and I could feel my knee giving way but I held back. Simple reason. Because I dont want to fall in front of my younger siblings. I wanna set a good example by staying strong always. But it was really awful. Many a time tears were rushing out but I managed to hold back everytime. I really need a break from my parents.
I dont know how I am gonna survive with him alone in India over the weekend. He has drained every single energy I have left in my soul. I was already alittle apprehensive about the trip. Now he makes things much simpler by having a grand opening to it. It is so gonna be real awful. I am dreading it even before i leave. I have another event tonight and most probably I will be home after midnight. I have yet to pack cos he locked me outside last night. & I dont think I could catch any sleep since we gotta go airport around 5 plus tomorrow and the moment we touched down I gotta work nonstop till sunday where we take midnight flight back to sg so that we reach sg at 7plus in d morning. Just nice for me to report for work on monday. I really am not complaining no matter how tired I am. I am willing to work. However, I do need a reason why i do things.
Last night, my dad gave me a call at my hp at 11plus. I didnt even know he touched down last night. I was in shock. Well! It was a nice greeting by my dad when the min the line was through, he was roaring over the phone. It was really annoying. The thing he said were really discouraging esp when im still stuck in the office at 11plus after walking the whole afternoon out in the sun from hotels to hotels to do some shit assignment that my boss asked me to do. & I have to rush back to office after that to run the event. & I have not eaten dinner. I am so fucking tired and I am not complaining. Neither do i ask for his understanding nor even try to understand. I also do not ask them to extend their empathy in anyway. All I ask for is to leave me alone and respect me, my jobscope and my choice.
Thanks to my parents, I find rich people really obnoxious and awfully rude. Just because he is freaking loaded, he thinks money is everything insulting all dignity that every job holds. Among many horrible things he said, the one that really make me give up on trying to communicate with him was that "how much are they paying you to make you work so long? Are you paid over-time? What kind of work are you doing till so late? Where are you screwing around? I dont care tomorrow you are not reporting to work!!" Then he hung up on me by slamming the phone real hard on the other end. Tell me how unreasonable is that when he never even gives me a fucking chance to speak cos he is talking at the speed of a machine gun. I am seriously wondering the kind of values he is instilling in me by saying all these. What kind of working attitude is he asking me to adopt? Is he asking me to be irresponsible? I just leave everything just so I can go home early and get screwed by him anyway? I really dont understand. Here I am working really very hard. Trying to do my best. I am also adjusting and trying to cope with the working life & it is hard enough. I am not even asking him to be supportive and encouraging. & he has to screw me like this. What a fucked up father I have?!
It is really ironic cos when I dont have a job, he gets so screwed up with me. Now that I have a job he is equally screwed. I have stop understanding them or even try to understand. It is so so annoying. Frankly speaking, it has been really a tough journey for me. Being apprehensive about my next stage of life and what i wanna do with my life as well as trying to appease my parents. I have been really depressed lately but I am not telling anyone nor showing it to anyone cos I need to stay strong. But being the closest people in this world to me, they are the one to just want me to fall and screw me time and again like this. It really drove me mad last night. It was so hard to suppress my feelings, still stand tall and smile the moment I entered the house only to be greeted by his angry look. I was too tired to be confronted. Thank god my mom drag him into the room. I was on the verge of breaking down and I could feel my knee giving way but I held back. Simple reason. Because I dont want to fall in front of my younger siblings. I wanna set a good example by staying strong always. But it was really awful. Many a time tears were rushing out but I managed to hold back everytime. I really need a break from my parents.
I dont know how I am gonna survive with him alone in India over the weekend. He has drained every single energy I have left in my soul. I was already alittle apprehensive about the trip. Now he makes things much simpler by having a grand opening to it. It is so gonna be real awful. I am dreading it even before i leave. I have another event tonight and most probably I will be home after midnight. I have yet to pack cos he locked me outside last night. & I dont think I could catch any sleep since we gotta go airport around 5 plus tomorrow and the moment we touched down I gotta work nonstop till sunday where we take midnight flight back to sg so that we reach sg at 7plus in d morning. Just nice for me to report for work on monday. I really am not complaining no matter how tired I am. I am willing to work. However, I do need a reason why i do things.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Oh! I have sent an email to you regarding my graduation. So check your email pls.
Pukey & puree, can you guys make it? Let me know yah.
I realize everyone is more kajiong than I am for my commencement esp my mom. After all the hype, I am kinda sian already. Like the initial excitment about graduation is over when I know my best friend couldnt make it. I dont see whats the point afterall without her. Also, much rejection from friends who couldnt make it. SIAN!
Johnny, I am graduating this 14 July. I still wish you could be here though. Miss you very much. My mom is here & she asked about you. If you see this, do drop me an email at chuameimei@gmail.com Hope you are doing good. Miss you a great deal.
Pukey & puree, can you guys make it? Let me know yah.
I realize everyone is more kajiong than I am for my commencement esp my mom. After all the hype, I am kinda sian already. Like the initial excitment about graduation is over when I know my best friend couldnt make it. I dont see whats the point afterall without her. Also, much rejection from friends who couldnt make it. SIAN!
Johnny, I am graduating this 14 July. I still wish you could be here though. Miss you very much. My mom is here & she asked about you. If you see this, do drop me an email at chuameimei@gmail.com Hope you are doing good. Miss you a great deal.
Today is one of the rare few days I am home early. That means reaching home around 8pm. In fact, one of the 3 days. Then a friend of mine called. He was rather surprised I am home early I guess. Then out of concern he asked me to rest early. HAH?! I am sure I can sleep early. I am home early because I brought work to home. I am home early cos this is probably the only day I can come home early for this entire week. I am home early cos I promise my mom i will be back for her shark fin soup. I am so shagged & it is only Monday.
I am super annoyed cos today 2 colleagues were on mc. Bad news is they are the ones in charge of all the functions and events. It is damn annoying cos all their stupid clients chased after their work but they are not around and I have to do it. & for no reason I get shit from the clients when it is not even my fault. KAOZ! Just attitude me! wtf! & I have to cover for their work. I am so damn annoyed. Could barely breathe.
To someone who thinks I can rest early, I wish! I sleep only at 2am-4am every morning so dont bother to ask me to rest early. I am really that busy. But I am not complaining cos this job really toughen me up alot. Give me a taste of what working life is like so I am better prepared for my job.
Anyhow, I am glad I manage to get leave for my Chennai trip on Friday.
I am super annoyed cos today 2 colleagues were on mc. Bad news is they are the ones in charge of all the functions and events. It is damn annoying cos all their stupid clients chased after their work but they are not around and I have to do it. & for no reason I get shit from the clients when it is not even my fault. KAOZ! Just attitude me! wtf! & I have to cover for their work. I am so damn annoyed. Could barely breathe.
To someone who thinks I can rest early, I wish! I sleep only at 2am-4am every morning so dont bother to ask me to rest early. I am really that busy. But I am not complaining cos this job really toughen me up alot. Give me a taste of what working life is like so I am better prepared for my job.
Anyhow, I am glad I manage to get leave for my Chennai trip on Friday.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Fright is mankind's biggest weakness
About a week ago, my dad gave me a call while he was in China for business trip. As usual, one of those phonecalls where he thought about things and fear of losing me must have crept in. So he started getting paronoid and worried. It is really amazing what fright could do to one's mind. Fear arising from the thought of losing someone under your care all these while. Fear arising from the confidence of your daughter cos for once she stood up firmly on the decision she is going to undertake.
Well! If my dad is coward to hold responsible for my life choices and yet want to manipulate in any way, sorry! I am not gonna let him have his way anymore. He just gotta learn life doesnt revolve around him. No doubt im grateful that he has raised me and groom me to be the way I am now and that I probably owe all I have to him, nevertheless that is not the passport to allowing him to control and manipulate me like a robot without feelings or brain. It doesnt help that all these while I slog away for the family & yet I am always taken for granted. No sign of appreciation is ever extended to me. I am not saying now that my wings are hard so I am gonna fly away. NO! Just that i am gonna take ownership of decision I will undertake. I decide what I think I should do and what I think is best for me. Bottomline, my family is still my number one priority no matter how many doubt it. I dont have to prove to anyone so long as I can answer to my own conscience.
Anyhow, my dad called to ask me when I am starting work and told me not to sign any paper with Apex Pal. Why? Because he wants me to pursue my Masters NOW! He doesnt want me to work. He wants me to further my study. Then he said everything we shall talk it out and settle when he is here for my commencement at the end of the month. SIGH! I thought we have firm up things. Now he has to do this again.I am so sick of this. I think he is the one i need to sign a contract with on things we agreed upon. Well! This time I am not giving in anymore. Since I have already made up my mind, I am so gonna stick with it. You can call me stubborn! That is what I am as long as I have made up my decision, I am gonna be very firm with it. So I told him NO! & i explain to him what is my plan and he can say whatever he wants but I know what I am doing and I know what is best for me. So I am gonna make the decision myself whether or not he is happy with it or like it, he just gotta deal with it. Finally, my dad listened. But I am not sure how many of it will retain in his head after that night conversation.
So he said "Well! I guess you sound like you know what you are doing and sure of it. I am sure that you are more educated than I am now. But i am definitely the one with experience." (Sigh! Men and their ego! EEKS! Die also must never make themselves lose face) Since he wanna talk about experience, win already lo. I will never win him on that. So I give it to him. "Sure Daddy. That explain why I will only be earning $1,800 & you earning $1.8million a month. So I dont deny that." But nonetheless I know what I am doing and I will answer for it my own. So not to worry about me." Actually I know he never worry about me. He worries about himself. I feel it is kinda selfish & he will never admit it. He will slap me if I say that to him. but it is true. Deep down he just worries he will lose me cos he would not know what I am doing or cos he lost the ability to control me. Well! All parents just gotta learn to let go. Your children do grow up & you wouldnt want a useless child depending on you and taking your instruction all d time with no initiative at all.
I am wondering how my weekend in Chennai with my dad alone will turn out. It is gonna be a very long week with no break in between for me. Hopefully, I can stay strong mentally and physically. I have events every night this coming week till Thursday night. Then I go home to pack and leave for Chennai early in d morning. Work throughout the weekend and come back Sunday midnight and reach sg monday morning and I have to head straight to work on Mon. Phew! The thought of it is scary! Wish me luck!
Well! If my dad is coward to hold responsible for my life choices and yet want to manipulate in any way, sorry! I am not gonna let him have his way anymore. He just gotta learn life doesnt revolve around him. No doubt im grateful that he has raised me and groom me to be the way I am now and that I probably owe all I have to him, nevertheless that is not the passport to allowing him to control and manipulate me like a robot without feelings or brain. It doesnt help that all these while I slog away for the family & yet I am always taken for granted. No sign of appreciation is ever extended to me. I am not saying now that my wings are hard so I am gonna fly away. NO! Just that i am gonna take ownership of decision I will undertake. I decide what I think I should do and what I think is best for me. Bottomline, my family is still my number one priority no matter how many doubt it. I dont have to prove to anyone so long as I can answer to my own conscience.
Anyhow, my dad called to ask me when I am starting work and told me not to sign any paper with Apex Pal. Why? Because he wants me to pursue my Masters NOW! He doesnt want me to work. He wants me to further my study. Then he said everything we shall talk it out and settle when he is here for my commencement at the end of the month. SIGH! I thought we have firm up things. Now he has to do this again.I am so sick of this. I think he is the one i need to sign a contract with on things we agreed upon. Well! This time I am not giving in anymore. Since I have already made up my mind, I am so gonna stick with it. You can call me stubborn! That is what I am as long as I have made up my decision, I am gonna be very firm with it. So I told him NO! & i explain to him what is my plan and he can say whatever he wants but I know what I am doing and I know what is best for me. So I am gonna make the decision myself whether or not he is happy with it or like it, he just gotta deal with it. Finally, my dad listened. But I am not sure how many of it will retain in his head after that night conversation.
So he said "Well! I guess you sound like you know what you are doing and sure of it. I am sure that you are more educated than I am now. But i am definitely the one with experience." (Sigh! Men and their ego! EEKS! Die also must never make themselves lose face) Since he wanna talk about experience, win already lo. I will never win him on that. So I give it to him. "Sure Daddy. That explain why I will only be earning $1,800 & you earning $1.8million a month. So I dont deny that." But nonetheless I know what I am doing and I will answer for it my own. So not to worry about me." Actually I know he never worry about me. He worries about himself. I feel it is kinda selfish & he will never admit it. He will slap me if I say that to him. but it is true. Deep down he just worries he will lose me cos he would not know what I am doing or cos he lost the ability to control me. Well! All parents just gotta learn to let go. Your children do grow up & you wouldnt want a useless child depending on you and taking your instruction all d time with no initiative at all.
I am wondering how my weekend in Chennai with my dad alone will turn out. It is gonna be a very long week with no break in between for me. Hopefully, I can stay strong mentally and physically. I have events every night this coming week till Thursday night. Then I go home to pack and leave for Chennai early in d morning. Work throughout the weekend and come back Sunday midnight and reach sg monday morning and I have to head straight to work on Mon. Phew! The thought of it is scary! Wish me luck!
Friday, June 22, 2007
Finally i could take a breather after a whole week packed of work that I could barely have time to sit down or eat meals. I had only a cup of fruit punch at 11pm for dinner last night and 3 sips of sprite. WOW! That busy. Finally finished up all my work for the week and now waiting for my 2 ediot friends to come visit me who just finished their work when I have been waiting for them for an hour. Now wait another one more hour & I am already damn hungry.
Alot of updates but no time for it to go in details. I am just very busy and occupied. Working hours about 12 hours every day. By the time I knock off and reach home, i go straight to bed and next day im off for work. No communication or whatsoever with my family. Like my mom fell asleep waiting up for me last night. (she just reached yesterday noon) I feel bad though but its kinda annoying how she kept calling when im still working. Basically, im too tired to talk by the time i reach home. No entertainment too. There goes my tv, mag & newspaper.
But I am not complaining cos my work is interesting and my boss has been really nice cos I always do her work swee swee. However, I have seen really the ugly side of the office politics & it is disgustingly ugly. I just wanna stay out of it though some ppl really annoy me. But I am not complaining. Though alot of juicy gossips to talk about.
Oh yah! Did i mention about my new crush at St James? He is the cutest guy around here. Always look forward to seeing him but he is not here every day cos he is a freelance designer so he comes in once in awhile. It is just so exciting to see him whenever he is here and that is something I look forward to it. I miss him when he is not around though. However, he hates me somehow. Pukey, according to my friend he has Desmond Wee's profile which is the handsome look. But I think my crush feature is more chiseled. His name is Josh. He has got damn cool style. Melt!
Oh yah! I am going India next weekend. So shan, no badminton next friday cos I will be in India. Pls inform the rest on my behalf. I dont think I have time & brain cell to remember to email you guys.
Also, sorry to everyone that I may appear rude on msn either not responding to ur msg or reply real short msg. Cos I am really busy & most of the time im not at my desk. So thanks for understanding. Even if u choose to be petty, deal with it man.
Well! I am really this busy to even have time to respond to ppl or msg them or msn them or email them. So this blog is all in one. Cool! Till then...going off to meet my friends for dinner
Alot of updates but no time for it to go in details. I am just very busy and occupied. Working hours about 12 hours every day. By the time I knock off and reach home, i go straight to bed and next day im off for work. No communication or whatsoever with my family. Like my mom fell asleep waiting up for me last night. (she just reached yesterday noon) I feel bad though but its kinda annoying how she kept calling when im still working. Basically, im too tired to talk by the time i reach home. No entertainment too. There goes my tv, mag & newspaper.
But I am not complaining cos my work is interesting and my boss has been really nice cos I always do her work swee swee. However, I have seen really the ugly side of the office politics & it is disgustingly ugly. I just wanna stay out of it though some ppl really annoy me. But I am not complaining. Though alot of juicy gossips to talk about.
Oh yah! Did i mention about my new crush at St James? He is the cutest guy around here. Always look forward to seeing him but he is not here every day cos he is a freelance designer so he comes in once in awhile. It is just so exciting to see him whenever he is here and that is something I look forward to it. I miss him when he is not around though. However, he hates me somehow. Pukey, according to my friend he has Desmond Wee's profile which is the handsome look. But I think my crush feature is more chiseled. His name is Josh. He has got damn cool style. Melt!
Oh yah! I am going India next weekend. So shan, no badminton next friday cos I will be in India. Pls inform the rest on my behalf. I dont think I have time & brain cell to remember to email you guys.
Also, sorry to everyone that I may appear rude on msn either not responding to ur msg or reply real short msg. Cos I am really busy & most of the time im not at my desk. So thanks for understanding. Even if u choose to be petty, deal with it man.
Well! I am really this busy to even have time to respond to ppl or msg them or msn them or email them. So this blog is all in one. Cool! Till then...going off to meet my friends for dinner
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Did I mention that my boss is pretty shrewd? Whenever she has alot of information to digest or need to report to the BIG BOSS, she likes to throw the thick stake of info & says "meimei, help me digest this & just tell me what I need to know". That is like the only instruction I am given. Now I am feeling a taste of what all the smu profs meant by in the working world you only have a min to make your speech. How true?! Cos she never allows ppl to talk or to inform her stuff in speech.
So that day she asked me to read through the proposal by some luxury lifestyle magazine for rich travellers. So I highlight what is impt & what she needs to know. Plus I summarized the entire proposal in a few liners for her. Of course I could see she is impressed since I took initiative to do alot of things without any single instruction on how to be done or what to do even. & you know what my boss did? she passed the entire pile to the BIG BOSS conveniently passing it off as her work. That was f***ing clever there and I am sure she is that efficient even. I am kinda shocked and that makes me realize people are really complex and I have been too naive. In the working world there aint much nice people. I mean I dont mind that she did it cos I dont need to impress anyone here since I dont need a job at St James. Neither do i need their apraisal. But what she did really wake me up & knock some sense into me about the complication of the bitchy working world. & I realize I have always been really living in the world of my own.
So that day she asked me to read through the proposal by some luxury lifestyle magazine for rich travellers. So I highlight what is impt & what she needs to know. Plus I summarized the entire proposal in a few liners for her. Of course I could see she is impressed since I took initiative to do alot of things without any single instruction on how to be done or what to do even. & you know what my boss did? she passed the entire pile to the BIG BOSS conveniently passing it off as her work. That was f***ing clever there and I am sure she is that efficient even. I am kinda shocked and that makes me realize people are really complex and I have been too naive. In the working world there aint much nice people. I mean I dont mind that she did it cos I dont need to impress anyone here since I dont need a job at St James. Neither do i need their apraisal. But what she did really wake me up & knock some sense into me about the complication of the bitchy working world. & I realize I have always been really living in the world of my own.
It is Saturday afternoon & there is a light shower outside. A perfect afternoon to laze around, eat & enjoy my time at home watching TV or DVDs. BUT can you believe it? I am stuck in the office. Probably the only one in the entire office in St James right now beside the receptionist. KAOZ!
My Boss asked me to come back & help for a VERY IMPORTANT function since they are short-handed as there are 2 events going on tonight. I cant believe I actually said "yes". I dont know if it is a blessing or a curse. When I first come in, my boss never give me face at all cos im just an intern so she doesnt really give me any impt to handle as she is afraid i will screw it up. Now things have changed. She told everyone in my dept not to give me anything to do cos she has work for me. I feel like I am some sort of her PA. She expects me to know what is blardy up in her mind whenever she twitch her eyebrow. WTF?! Thank god! I have a very good training under my dad so handling my boss is peanut compared to my unreasonable & demanding dad.
I have also realized that that day my boss screamed at me is not even considered scolding cos she is super fierce to my colleagues. She scolds like nobody business and everyone feels so depressed working for her. I could see she favours me so much it is kinda getting me into trouble with my colleagues. I think I am like the most irritating girl in the dept now as I have to constantly pester people to get their work done since my boss says in front of everyone "meimei, can you make sure these people get their stuff done by today". I am stepping on people's toes already man. Sia la! Leave me out of office politics man. I just wanna do my job & stay out of trouble.
Also she brings me to every meeting with clients and I am included in all her email thread when my colleagues are being left out of it & poor thing they dont know what is going on when they are supposed to be in charge of drawing up contracts. SIGH! I realized the real working world is complex as it is and you really gotta watch your every step. Now all the important events that my boss is in charge, she asked me to co-handle with her. Cos she is the boss so she handles the big account & the VIP events. Owell! alot to learn for me.
My Boss asked me to come back & help for a VERY IMPORTANT function since they are short-handed as there are 2 events going on tonight. I cant believe I actually said "yes". I dont know if it is a blessing or a curse. When I first come in, my boss never give me face at all cos im just an intern so she doesnt really give me any impt to handle as she is afraid i will screw it up. Now things have changed. She told everyone in my dept not to give me anything to do cos she has work for me. I feel like I am some sort of her PA. She expects me to know what is blardy up in her mind whenever she twitch her eyebrow. WTF?! Thank god! I have a very good training under my dad so handling my boss is peanut compared to my unreasonable & demanding dad.
I have also realized that that day my boss screamed at me is not even considered scolding cos she is super fierce to my colleagues. She scolds like nobody business and everyone feels so depressed working for her. I could see she favours me so much it is kinda getting me into trouble with my colleagues. I think I am like the most irritating girl in the dept now as I have to constantly pester people to get their work done since my boss says in front of everyone "meimei, can you make sure these people get their stuff done by today". I am stepping on people's toes already man. Sia la! Leave me out of office politics man. I just wanna do my job & stay out of trouble.
Also she brings me to every meeting with clients and I am included in all her email thread when my colleagues are being left out of it & poor thing they dont know what is going on when they are supposed to be in charge of drawing up contracts. SIGH! I realized the real working world is complex as it is and you really gotta watch your every step. Now all the important events that my boss is in charge, she asked me to co-handle with her. Cos she is the boss so she handles the big account & the VIP events. Owell! alot to learn for me.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Messaging for Puree
PUREE!!!
Here is the deal! I spoke to Pukey last night & we have come up with an incredulous plan. Of course, you are a part of our secret plan as usual. When are you coming back to Singapore? My internship at St James ends on 13 July. Then I have my graduation the next day with another photoshoot in SMU on Sunday. Then I am thinking of flying over to Sydney to find Pukey. She stays right smack in the city so we can just stay at her place. Pukey wanna go skiing. So now she is looking at ski resort for availability. That means we will be there for a week from 16 July - 22 July. Set?! That timing good for you? Try to work something out on your side ok. Cos it is very hard for me to change the date.
I am supposed to start reporting for work on 16 July actually. But if our plan pull through I will ask to start work later. So Puree, reply soon please. It has been quite sometime since we last travel together. Our Bangkok days. Since pukey cant meet up this holidays in Singapore, lets have our gathering in Sydney instead. Pukey can bring us to all the cool places there. Great shopping & I wanna eat the pancakes plus my krispy kream!
I am so excited already & this is gonna be something I will look forward to.
Here is the deal! I spoke to Pukey last night & we have come up with an incredulous plan. Of course, you are a part of our secret plan as usual. When are you coming back to Singapore? My internship at St James ends on 13 July. Then I have my graduation the next day with another photoshoot in SMU on Sunday. Then I am thinking of flying over to Sydney to find Pukey. She stays right smack in the city so we can just stay at her place. Pukey wanna go skiing. So now she is looking at ski resort for availability. That means we will be there for a week from 16 July - 22 July. Set?! That timing good for you? Try to work something out on your side ok. Cos it is very hard for me to change the date.
I am supposed to start reporting for work on 16 July actually. But if our plan pull through I will ask to start work later. So Puree, reply soon please. It has been quite sometime since we last travel together. Our Bangkok days. Since pukey cant meet up this holidays in Singapore, lets have our gathering in Sydney instead. Pukey can bring us to all the cool places there. Great shopping & I wanna eat the pancakes plus my krispy kream!
I am so excited already & this is gonna be something I will look forward to.
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Shitty Shitty Shitty
Never know how shitty it could be to be scolded by others. It sucks!
Yesterday my boss asked me to back up her stuff from her old IBM laptop to CD.
That was the only instruction! Fine! I do it though I hate doing such IT stuff.
Then only after I have burnt everything on d CD, did she tell me that she doesnt need it anymore cos she cant open the files in her powerbook. hmm...well! Not my problem since she doesnt tell me what she needs it for and how can she expect me to read her mind. I am not a psyche nor have a crystal ball u know?
Somehow the next time she look at her laptop again, her taskbar went missing.
WTF! Then she was screaming at the top of her voice & accusing me of screwing her laptop.
Goodness gracious! Gimme a break! I didnt touch your laptop except to back ur stuff.
I am so ediot with such IT stuff, I wouldnt do anything more man.
Then she jus screamed at me "Dont give me problems, just give me solution"
I was so fucking exasperated. Cos I have no idea how to bring her missing taskbar back to her desktop.
i am so IT-EDIOT. & there she is scolding me at the side for something I didnt do.
I could have swollowed it down if it was my mistake. DAMN!
It was so bad all my colleagues were so concerned & all tried to help.
But none could really be of much help rather than "try this try that"
nonetheless it was very thoughtful of them. It is the nice colleagues here that is keeping me going.
By the time I am so lost, exasperated & flustered trying to SEARCH for her taskbar.
I was so close to tears cos I just have no clue on how to do it.
I almost say "I quit!"
But I held back. Somehow i think it is a good training ground for me.
Just have to learn to deal with it. It sux cos I was never scolded by outsider before.
Thank god I am resourceful enough to be able to find someone to help whenever I need them.
Managed to call up my IT-expert, Shannon to teach me step by step PATIENTLY.
Viola! After 2hours of grilling or so (i dont know how long i was at it but i felt that long) I managed to install back her daRn taskbar. I was overjoyed.
But my Boss didnt even say a single "thank you". rather give me you shouldn't have screwed up my stuff look.wtf!
Thanks Shannon! For a moment, I love you very much!
You have been really nice & sweet. Thanks for your help! Appreciate it!
I feel kinda bad that I never really give a daRn about him to think that at a time like this, he is the one who jump to my rescue. A friend in need is a friend indeed. hmmm.....Apt description! hahahaha....
Yesterday my boss asked me to back up her stuff from her old IBM laptop to CD.
That was the only instruction! Fine! I do it though I hate doing such IT stuff.
Then only after I have burnt everything on d CD, did she tell me that she doesnt need it anymore cos she cant open the files in her powerbook. hmm...well! Not my problem since she doesnt tell me what she needs it for and how can she expect me to read her mind. I am not a psyche nor have a crystal ball u know?
Somehow the next time she look at her laptop again, her taskbar went missing.
WTF! Then she was screaming at the top of her voice & accusing me of screwing her laptop.
Goodness gracious! Gimme a break! I didnt touch your laptop except to back ur stuff.
I am so ediot with such IT stuff, I wouldnt do anything more man.
Then she jus screamed at me "Dont give me problems, just give me solution"
I was so fucking exasperated. Cos I have no idea how to bring her missing taskbar back to her desktop.
i am so IT-EDIOT. & there she is scolding me at the side for something I didnt do.
I could have swollowed it down if it was my mistake. DAMN!
It was so bad all my colleagues were so concerned & all tried to help.
But none could really be of much help rather than "try this try that"
nonetheless it was very thoughtful of them. It is the nice colleagues here that is keeping me going.
By the time I am so lost, exasperated & flustered trying to SEARCH for her taskbar.
I was so close to tears cos I just have no clue on how to do it.
I almost say "I quit!"
But I held back. Somehow i think it is a good training ground for me.
Just have to learn to deal with it. It sux cos I was never scolded by outsider before.
Thank god I am resourceful enough to be able to find someone to help whenever I need them.
Managed to call up my IT-expert, Shannon to teach me step by step PATIENTLY.
Viola! After 2hours of grilling or so (i dont know how long i was at it but i felt that long) I managed to install back her daRn taskbar. I was overjoyed.
But my Boss didnt even say a single "thank you". rather give me you shouldn't have screwed up my stuff look.wtf!
Thanks Shannon! For a moment, I love you very much!
You have been really nice & sweet. Thanks for your help! Appreciate it!
I feel kinda bad that I never really give a daRn about him to think that at a time like this, he is the one who jump to my rescue. A friend in need is a friend indeed. hmmm.....Apt description! hahahaha....
Sunday, June 10, 2007
My mom & her fortune teller.
HAH?! Once again, the fortune teller told my mom that I am getting married this year. I wanna laugh my head off. She has been telling my mom that I have a boyfriend since dinosaur ages & I dont even see his shadow lingering around. Then she also told my mom that while there are guys coming my way, I am totally not interested in relationship. Doesnt that contradict? If I am not interested in being in a relationship, how do I even end up marrying? I have always doubt the reliability of the fortune teller.
One interesting thing to note was that she warned me to beware of a guy friend who will try to get close to me by pretending to be interested in me when he obviously is not. hmmm........
HAH?! Once again, the fortune teller told my mom that I am getting married this year. I wanna laugh my head off. She has been telling my mom that I have a boyfriend since dinosaur ages & I dont even see his shadow lingering around. Then she also told my mom that while there are guys coming my way, I am totally not interested in relationship. Doesnt that contradict? If I am not interested in being in a relationship, how do I even end up marrying? I have always doubt the reliability of the fortune teller.
One interesting thing to note was that she warned me to beware of a guy friend who will try to get close to me by pretending to be interested in me when he obviously is not. hmmm........
Saturday Girls' Night
According to Lynn, I am ridiculously happy somehow last night. Well! I am always very happy to meet these bunch of badminton kakis cos I know I will have a great time not just enjoying the time with them but also cos they are where I could be totally myself. I always look forward to every Friday where we had our badminton session.
This week was special. We had our Girls' Night out on Saturday instead since we didnt play badminton on Friday. This was finally the time I can enjoy myself and relax after the whole tiring working week. So it was my motivation to get me through the entire week when I felt like giving up. It was fun dressing up for the night. We all look pretty, aint we?
It was fun to trick Kaileng to come out in a dress. Cos they have no idea where I am bringing them out, so I just told everyone to dress up in pretty dresses. She must be thinking I am bringing her to some posh place where you have to observe dress code. Nonetheless, I am happy how we all look so beautiful in our pretty dresses.
We were at Oosh rooftop bar. Finally! That is me & shan. We look so good in our nice dresses, I couldnt help but kept snapping away. Self-absorbed? Yes! That's what I am.
The 4 of us. Kaileng, Shan, me & Lynn
We are so pretty plus the drinks colour were so nicely pink we gotta take another shot. & yes! I am still ridiculously happy.
I have decided not to patronize Oosh again cos the service SUX to the core. It is either Indians or Mainland Chinese waiters & waitresses who know nuts what they are serving, it totally pissed me off! & the mood aint right with them around speaking mainland mandarin. Argh! It took them 45min to get my ice water to the table. Pissed me off so totally!
Anyhow, I totally enjoyed my night out. Even though I know all your weekends are reserved for your significant others, I am glad all of you take your time out to spend it with me. It feels so awful to borrow my own girlfriends from their boyfriends. Deep down inside I have this tinge of jealousy & unhappiness cos I am being such a princess and I dislike the idea that I do not have my friends all to myself & that I have to "share" or even resort to "borrowing" from others. EEKS!
So you might wonder if that pressure me to find my significant other. No! Somehow I felt so lucky to be single hearing some of the issues and trouble all these couples are facing regarding their relationship and their parents. I empathize but meanwhile I feel RELIEVED to not have to be accountable or ask for "permission" to be out on a weekend with friends.
This week was special. We had our Girls' Night out on Saturday instead since we didnt play badminton on Friday. This was finally the time I can enjoy myself and relax after the whole tiring working week. So it was my motivation to get me through the entire week when I felt like giving up. It was fun dressing up for the night. We all look pretty, aint we?
It was fun to trick Kaileng to come out in a dress. Cos they have no idea where I am bringing them out, so I just told everyone to dress up in pretty dresses. She must be thinking I am bringing her to some posh place where you have to observe dress code. Nonetheless, I am happy how we all look so beautiful in our pretty dresses.
We were at Oosh rooftop bar. Finally! That is me & shan. We look so good in our nice dresses, I couldnt help but kept snapping away. Self-absorbed? Yes! That's what I am.
The 4 of us. Kaileng, Shan, me & Lynn
We are so pretty plus the drinks colour were so nicely pink we gotta take another shot. & yes! I am still ridiculously happy.
I have decided not to patronize Oosh again cos the service SUX to the core. It is either Indians or Mainland Chinese waiters & waitresses who know nuts what they are serving, it totally pissed me off! & the mood aint right with them around speaking mainland mandarin. Argh! It took them 45min to get my ice water to the table. Pissed me off so totally!
Anyhow, I totally enjoyed my night out. Even though I know all your weekends are reserved for your significant others, I am glad all of you take your time out to spend it with me. It feels so awful to borrow my own girlfriends from their boyfriends. Deep down inside I have this tinge of jealousy & unhappiness cos I am being such a princess and I dislike the idea that I do not have my friends all to myself & that I have to "share" or even resort to "borrowing" from others. EEKS!
So you might wonder if that pressure me to find my significant other. No! Somehow I felt so lucky to be single hearing some of the issues and trouble all these couples are facing regarding their relationship and their parents. I empathize but meanwhile I feel RELIEVED to not have to be accountable or ask for "permission" to be out on a weekend with friends.
Friday, June 8, 2007
Crazy Thursday
Last night was the final straw. We had 2 corporate events. So me & my buddy took on the bigger account. A coporate event for an MNC at St James. It was madness trying to accommodate 400 over plus people & all their stupid requests. So much things to oversee. Practically rushing & fretting like mad. The clients are freaking demanding & anal. I was totally worn out, stressed & sleepy. It doesnt help that I have been standing from 4pm-1230am with empty stomach. So F***ed by the time the event ends at 12midnight, I am super moody, grouchy & hungry.
But the party went well amidst all the hiccups. The regional director for Singapore came to praise us for a job well done. It was consoling but some f***ing group of ang moh really screw up. They were making so much trouble for us. Told us their f***ing organisation just spent a hell of money on the party. So he refused to pay fucking entry fee for his friends who jus came in after the event. please la! you are some senior executive. It is only $15 bucks for god sake. & they wanna bring all the free drinks from the event over to other outlets! FUCK them! Then we have to escort them there since we are letting them enter for free & help them get a chop. & he is so fucking screwed & complained like some sissy cos he doesnt wanna go in by the main entrance to get the chop. FUCK it! Then he was being so freaking anal with me n complain like shit. & I am damn freaking exhausted by then, I give him "u can say whatever" look. I am damn pissed I cant be bothered la. it doesnt help I have to look up to him since he is like 1.9m? DAMMIT! I am so pissed!
I was so close to fainting and my entire body was shaking. I could barely move my legs. I was so exhausted and so pissed and stressed I was close to tears. I know I sound like a missy who cant take hardship. Kaoz! Give me a break & some credits. I am trying and working very hard. Give me some slack for adjustment sia. Easy for anyone with office jobs sitting in the office staring at ur bloody screen to say la. But standing among the smelly crowds, running around on ur empty stomach in the dark aint funny. It doesnt help when the clients are fucking anal.
I am really grateful and feel so fortunate to have a friend to visit me & fetch me home every night. Really counting my blessing. Thank Buddha for showering me with so many "angels" to dote on me & take good care of me. So I was weak to my knees last night & I called my friend for help. Poor friend has to drive down from north to south where st james is and the moment I step into the car, i slept. Leaving him to navigate himself around the unfamiliar area to hunt for porridge for me since I no longer have the energy to digest any solid food. I dont really know what happened along the way as I am half-conscious. I couldnt open my eyes at all & i jus know I was fed some juice. Can you imagine my friend has to drive and hold my drink at the same time so that I can drink? I feel like a baby being fed with milk bottle. Then I forced my friend to feed me porridge since I cant even hold the spoon properly. I was shakking and felt so weak & wobbly. When he fed me I was practically eating with my eyes closed cos I am so freaking tired. As usual, being demanding & ungrateful princess I always am, I blame my friend for not cutting up the fish piece into smaller bite size and not blowing my porridge enough to make it cooler and for forcing it so hard into my mouth and for not feeding it frequently enough. He was so totally pissed off by then cos he said he never has to serve someone so freaking demanding and that the last time he fed people was his little cousins. He even complains he doesnt even feed his gf. He was so angry with me he just scolded me upside down when I am so exhausted. I almost cried cos I was so helpless.
So friend, thanks for coming to my rescue. thanks for fetching me. thanks for going down to hunt for porridge and buy food for me. thanks for driving me home safely. thanks for taking good care of me. thanks for feeding me so unwillingly. thanks for always giving in to all my unreasonable demands even though you scold & scold me non-stop like some naggy mom. I appreciate everything nonetheless. Would appreciate it more if you could jus shut up & do what I ask you to do without much verbal retaliation. hee... I feel so blissed and loved having someone to feed me like a baby. (I miss my cousin so much now cos she always feeds me dinner even when im still this age.) But rem you just cant compare me w ur gf like this since friends are forever. wahahaha...& u are only nice to ur friend once in a blue moon while you pamper your gf ALL the time. So its different. Plus I am a princess so naturally you have to treat a princess like a princess. ;)
I know I am super pampered, spoilt, missy & princessy. But who cares when I have so many to love me & dote on me dearly. I couldnt feel much more blissful and fortunate than ever. & I am so thankful that I have so many people to watch over me, take good care of me & pamper me at a time like this when I feel so down & low. Nonetheless I appreciate it very very much.
But the party went well amidst all the hiccups. The regional director for Singapore came to praise us for a job well done. It was consoling but some f***ing group of ang moh really screw up. They were making so much trouble for us. Told us their f***ing organisation just spent a hell of money on the party. So he refused to pay fucking entry fee for his friends who jus came in after the event. please la! you are some senior executive. It is only $15 bucks for god sake. & they wanna bring all the free drinks from the event over to other outlets! FUCK them! Then we have to escort them there since we are letting them enter for free & help them get a chop. & he is so fucking screwed & complained like some sissy cos he doesnt wanna go in by the main entrance to get the chop. FUCK it! Then he was being so freaking anal with me n complain like shit. & I am damn freaking exhausted by then, I give him "u can say whatever" look. I am damn pissed I cant be bothered la. it doesnt help I have to look up to him since he is like 1.9m? DAMMIT! I am so pissed!
I was so close to fainting and my entire body was shaking. I could barely move my legs. I was so exhausted and so pissed and stressed I was close to tears. I know I sound like a missy who cant take hardship. Kaoz! Give me a break & some credits. I am trying and working very hard. Give me some slack for adjustment sia. Easy for anyone with office jobs sitting in the office staring at ur bloody screen to say la. But standing among the smelly crowds, running around on ur empty stomach in the dark aint funny. It doesnt help when the clients are fucking anal.
I am really grateful and feel so fortunate to have a friend to visit me & fetch me home every night. Really counting my blessing. Thank Buddha for showering me with so many "angels" to dote on me & take good care of me. So I was weak to my knees last night & I called my friend for help. Poor friend has to drive down from north to south where st james is and the moment I step into the car, i slept. Leaving him to navigate himself around the unfamiliar area to hunt for porridge for me since I no longer have the energy to digest any solid food. I dont really know what happened along the way as I am half-conscious. I couldnt open my eyes at all & i jus know I was fed some juice. Can you imagine my friend has to drive and hold my drink at the same time so that I can drink? I feel like a baby being fed with milk bottle. Then I forced my friend to feed me porridge since I cant even hold the spoon properly. I was shakking and felt so weak & wobbly. When he fed me I was practically eating with my eyes closed cos I am so freaking tired. As usual, being demanding & ungrateful princess I always am, I blame my friend for not cutting up the fish piece into smaller bite size and not blowing my porridge enough to make it cooler and for forcing it so hard into my mouth and for not feeding it frequently enough. He was so totally pissed off by then cos he said he never has to serve someone so freaking demanding and that the last time he fed people was his little cousins. He even complains he doesnt even feed his gf. He was so angry with me he just scolded me upside down when I am so exhausted. I almost cried cos I was so helpless.
So friend, thanks for coming to my rescue. thanks for fetching me. thanks for going down to hunt for porridge and buy food for me. thanks for driving me home safely. thanks for taking good care of me. thanks for feeding me so unwillingly. thanks for always giving in to all my unreasonable demands even though you scold & scold me non-stop like some naggy mom. I appreciate everything nonetheless. Would appreciate it more if you could jus shut up & do what I ask you to do without much verbal retaliation. hee... I feel so blissed and loved having someone to feed me like a baby. (I miss my cousin so much now cos she always feeds me dinner even when im still this age.) But rem you just cant compare me w ur gf like this since friends are forever. wahahaha...& u are only nice to ur friend once in a blue moon while you pamper your gf ALL the time. So its different. Plus I am a princess so naturally you have to treat a princess like a princess. ;)
I know I am super pampered, spoilt, missy & princessy. But who cares when I have so many to love me & dote on me dearly. I couldnt feel much more blissful and fortunate than ever. & I am so thankful that I have so many people to watch over me, take good care of me & pamper me at a time like this when I feel so down & low. Nonetheless I appreciate it very very much.
Mad Wednesday
So on wednesday, we went to Oosh party thinking it will be happening. Kaoz! Dead boring! After that we have to follow my boss to do "market research" & we started club hopping. It doesnt help much that it was Ladies Night. & my boss is damn shrewd. Cos she doesnt want to pay for her drink since she drinks in tons, so she tag along those sales & marketing guys from liquor company. I felt like some social escort. GROSS OUT TOTALLY!
I felt like this is the first time I really see the REAL world. I felt being so protected and been staying in a nutshell...Those men make me feel so totally sick. But my boss is really nice & take good care of me knowing I dont drink, she will swap her glass with mine whenever she finishes hers so that I wont look bad. However, whenever they cheer, I have no choice but to take a sip. There was this moment when my boss was busy entertaining & networking, & my colleague went to find her friend, I was left alone and this ediot came to talk to me. But my boss was watching over me from far & asked if im ok. Well! I guess I know how to protect myself but still it was pretty frightening. I thought I know the world & that night makes me realize I have still alot to discover, the ugly side of the real world. I find such networking disgusting cos the conversation topics are freaking shallow & gross!
We went to some new bar open at Dempsy road & then we went clarke quay to check out "the arena". & I had enuf. It was already 130am. So i told my boss im going off. She still moved on to "the clinic", MOS & another bar along the clarke quay. MADNESS!! I was so scared, I sms my friend to tell her to come look for me in Arena if I dont call her by that night jus in case my drink is being spiked. wahahaha....I know I am super paranoid. Then my colleague laugh like mad. She was like "your boss how big & scary. You think anyone dare to bully or lay finger on you?" True true...but prevention better than cure right?
My whole body stink to the max. My skin have all those gross cigarette smell. I dont even wanna bring my hand near my nose. I felt so gross, I went home & scrub myself like crazy. YEEKS!!
Anyhow, just wanna thank you for coming to fetch me on thursday morning even though it is super late & i know you stay up to fetch me home even though you have to report to work early the next day. I really appreciate it & I just want you to know I never taken you for granted. I am grateful to have such nice protective friend like you who love me so dearly. Thank you love!
I felt like this is the first time I really see the REAL world. I felt being so protected and been staying in a nutshell...Those men make me feel so totally sick. But my boss is really nice & take good care of me knowing I dont drink, she will swap her glass with mine whenever she finishes hers so that I wont look bad. However, whenever they cheer, I have no choice but to take a sip. There was this moment when my boss was busy entertaining & networking, & my colleague went to find her friend, I was left alone and this ediot came to talk to me. But my boss was watching over me from far & asked if im ok. Well! I guess I know how to protect myself but still it was pretty frightening. I thought I know the world & that night makes me realize I have still alot to discover, the ugly side of the real world. I find such networking disgusting cos the conversation topics are freaking shallow & gross!
We went to some new bar open at Dempsy road & then we went clarke quay to check out "the arena". & I had enuf. It was already 130am. So i told my boss im going off. She still moved on to "the clinic", MOS & another bar along the clarke quay. MADNESS!! I was so scared, I sms my friend to tell her to come look for me in Arena if I dont call her by that night jus in case my drink is being spiked. wahahaha....I know I am super paranoid. Then my colleague laugh like mad. She was like "your boss how big & scary. You think anyone dare to bully or lay finger on you?" True true...but prevention better than cure right?
My whole body stink to the max. My skin have all those gross cigarette smell. I dont even wanna bring my hand near my nose. I felt so gross, I went home & scrub myself like crazy. YEEKS!!
Anyhow, just wanna thank you for coming to fetch me on thursday morning even though it is super late & i know you stay up to fetch me home even though you have to report to work early the next day. I really appreciate it & I just want you to know I never taken you for granted. I am grateful to have such nice protective friend like you who love me so dearly. Thank you love!
錢不容易賺
Never know earning money could be this tough. cos all along money is never an issue for me. So even when I work last time, it was all for fun & to keep me occupied. Therefore I usually make sure i just do what I enjoy doing. Ultimately, my dad will match any amount of money I need or lack from the pay since he just wants me to work to see the world & learn.
Now that I am starting to work SERIOUSLY even though as an intern with misery pay, & i like the people in my office plus the tasks are not that difficult, but the rush, the workload & the working hours are insane. Cos i am just an intern for only 6weeks, my boss die also dont want me to do quotation for the clients. However, I am supposed to oversee the event on the actual day. So spare me from the paperwork la. But I would still love to learn to do quotation. Workloads have been crazy cos I am supposed to follow up on EVERYONE'S work & remind everyone, chase after everyone. cos everyone here so slack, you gotta really go after them & remind them many times to get the stuff done. Plus cos I am an intern & im not doing quotation, most of the time, every other stuff is thrown onto me. Geez!
It doesnt help much when my boss likes me cos I am efficient & sharp, so usually she will entrust me with chasing after the others. Well Done! She will tell me to tell the other to do their work when she could have told them herself. Thank goodness my colleagues are really nice people so they are not offended by me to pester them like housefly. They are nice enough to think that I am trying to help by reminding them. Damn lucky! Of cos I also always have to cover up for them when I am supposed to report back to my boss. So alot of covering up means helping them do their works for them & my boss doesnt know of cos that i did it.
Right now I am so freaking exhausted. It has only been my first week of work & i am so totally drained. I have been going home after midnight every night & I am supposed to report to work by 10-10am the next day when the rest of the department come in after 12noon. Just because I am an intern. Kaoz!!
I have no mood to work today. Good news is my boss is on MC today so the entire office is in chaos.
Now that I am starting to work SERIOUSLY even though as an intern with misery pay, & i like the people in my office plus the tasks are not that difficult, but the rush, the workload & the working hours are insane. Cos i am just an intern for only 6weeks, my boss die also dont want me to do quotation for the clients. However, I am supposed to oversee the event on the actual day. So spare me from the paperwork la. But I would still love to learn to do quotation. Workloads have been crazy cos I am supposed to follow up on EVERYONE'S work & remind everyone, chase after everyone. cos everyone here so slack, you gotta really go after them & remind them many times to get the stuff done. Plus cos I am an intern & im not doing quotation, most of the time, every other stuff is thrown onto me. Geez!
It doesnt help much when my boss likes me cos I am efficient & sharp, so usually she will entrust me with chasing after the others. Well Done! She will tell me to tell the other to do their work when she could have told them herself. Thank goodness my colleagues are really nice people so they are not offended by me to pester them like housefly. They are nice enough to think that I am trying to help by reminding them. Damn lucky! Of cos I also always have to cover up for them when I am supposed to report back to my boss. So alot of covering up means helping them do their works for them & my boss doesnt know of cos that i did it.
Right now I am so freaking exhausted. It has only been my first week of work & i am so totally drained. I have been going home after midnight every night & I am supposed to report to work by 10-10am the next day when the rest of the department come in after 12noon. Just because I am an intern. Kaoz!!
I have no mood to work today. Good news is my boss is on MC today so the entire office is in chaos.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
I am having killer migraine & feeling super grouchy.
I am tired from all the crazy mad rush in the afternoon trying to finish my work before I can eat my lunch at 230.
Having irregular meals here with all the crazy non-stop snacking.
Now I am feeling bored and real tired. I just wanna go home.
I dont even wanna attend the party at Oosh anymore cos I am so tired.
Haven been sleeping enough & I am yet to start on my mini project since I cant concentrate on my work at the office cos everyone likes to come & disturb me to give me work every now & then.
& i cant seem to find inspiration to start on it. DaRn!!
To all those EDIOTs out there who call in,
NO! I dont work in the club downstairs. You are freaking calling during office hour so it is corporate office not freaking club!
So NO YOU WONT BLARDY SEE ME AT THE RECEPTION DESK NOR BLARDY MEMEBERSHIP COUNTER. kaoz!!! does it make a difference if I am there or not when I have already given you all the f***ing info you need. Just go there & any tom, dick & harry could process your freaking application. Sick of such HIMBOTIC question. GIMME a break!!
& to that che ko pek from Pure Media. To hell with you!! I am no freaking interested in your freaking beauty peagent which is totally not glamourised at all. What?! Ms Earth!! So stop asking me everytime u freaking see me & stop talking to me everyday you see me in the outlet for a drink. & NO you dont need to buy me a drink cos I can have it FREE for all I want. DAMN!
ok! I feel much better now. I am so super annoyed cos i am tired, cold and hungry. To top it up, my killer headache is not helping me much. I am super bad mood!!
I am tired from all the crazy mad rush in the afternoon trying to finish my work before I can eat my lunch at 230.
Having irregular meals here with all the crazy non-stop snacking.
Now I am feeling bored and real tired. I just wanna go home.
I dont even wanna attend the party at Oosh anymore cos I am so tired.
Haven been sleeping enough & I am yet to start on my mini project since I cant concentrate on my work at the office cos everyone likes to come & disturb me to give me work every now & then.
& i cant seem to find inspiration to start on it. DaRn!!
To all those EDIOTs out there who call in,
NO! I dont work in the club downstairs. You are freaking calling during office hour so it is corporate office not freaking club!
So NO YOU WONT BLARDY SEE ME AT THE RECEPTION DESK NOR BLARDY MEMEBERSHIP COUNTER. kaoz!!! does it make a difference if I am there or not when I have already given you all the f***ing info you need. Just go there & any tom, dick & harry could process your freaking application. Sick of such HIMBOTIC question. GIMME a break!!
& to that che ko pek from Pure Media. To hell with you!! I am no freaking interested in your freaking beauty peagent which is totally not glamourised at all. What?! Ms Earth!! So stop asking me everytime u freaking see me & stop talking to me everyday you see me in the outlet for a drink. & NO you dont need to buy me a drink cos I can have it FREE for all I want. DAMN!
ok! I feel much better now. I am so super annoyed cos i am tired, cold and hungry. To top it up, my killer headache is not helping me much. I am super bad mood!!
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Kaoz! I am still stuck in the office at this time. We have department meeting from 5-8pm.
Learn a hell lot of stuff but too draggy at the end.
Worse still i could totally not understand what the heck was the COO talking about with the DJ.
With all the music term & club branding. So totally not connecting to me.
Now waiting for the clock to strike 945pm before i move my butt out of here to go Vivo to catch a movie with my colleague.
I am glad I can get along well with everyone here & they are nice to me.
Well...I tried and always take initiative to help them out with their work to make their lives easier.
It is even nicer that my boss likes me and think well of me.
I am going to Oosh tomorrow to Level party that promotes vodka by maxxium. Cool stuff!
I dont have any idea what the party is about but I just wanna go cos it is Oosh!
I am going there again with my badminton kaki on Sat for our Girls Night out.
So looking forward to my weekend though that means I have to complete my project. Whatever?!
Considering whether I should give my friend some face and grace the Citibank private event this coming Wed at zouk. tsk tsk
Inviting princess aint that easy.
I am also considering whether I should go on private boat next weekend to a trip to msia. I was invited by this male "friend". I want to go on a trip out to the sea. It will be fun & relaxing. But going with him?! hmmm.....abit tricky there.
Learn a hell lot of stuff but too draggy at the end.
Worse still i could totally not understand what the heck was the COO talking about with the DJ.
With all the music term & club branding. So totally not connecting to me.
Now waiting for the clock to strike 945pm before i move my butt out of here to go Vivo to catch a movie with my colleague.
I am glad I can get along well with everyone here & they are nice to me.
Well...I tried and always take initiative to help them out with their work to make their lives easier.
It is even nicer that my boss likes me and think well of me.
I am going to Oosh tomorrow to Level party that promotes vodka by maxxium. Cool stuff!
I dont have any idea what the party is about but I just wanna go cos it is Oosh!
I am going there again with my badminton kaki on Sat for our Girls Night out.
So looking forward to my weekend though that means I have to complete my project. Whatever?!
Considering whether I should give my friend some face and grace the Citibank private event this coming Wed at zouk. tsk tsk
Inviting princess aint that easy.
I am also considering whether I should go on private boat next weekend to a trip to msia. I was invited by this male "friend". I want to go on a trip out to the sea. It will be fun & relaxing. But going with him?! hmmm.....abit tricky there.
You were a phase and I am out of it.
I am happy the way my life is.
I am blessed for having many to love.
I am glad our paths crossed.
And I never regret we went our seperate ways.
I appreciate if you give me back my space.
I will be grateful if you restore my peace.
I will not stop you if you leave me alone.
I will be more than delighted you will no longer be a part of my life.
So leave me alone.
Restore my serenity.
That would be the best parting gift you bestow onto me.
I am blessed for having many to love.
I am glad our paths crossed.
And I never regret we went our seperate ways.
I appreciate if you give me back my space.
I will be grateful if you restore my peace.
I will not stop you if you leave me alone.
I will be more than delighted you will no longer be a part of my life.
So leave me alone.
Restore my serenity.
That would be the best parting gift you bestow onto me.
There are friends forever. There are also friends for awhile.
I miss you once.
I miss you twice.
After awhile you stop existing in my world.
Then you came knocking again.
What is there to feel.
What is there to think.
There was no feeling.
There was no emotion.
Cos you have stop existing in my world.
I miss my good old pal.
I miss the old you.
I miss us.
But everything's in the past.
I have stop thinking.
I have stop missing.
Cos you have stop existing in my world.
I miss you twice.
After awhile you stop existing in my world.
Then you came knocking again.
What is there to feel.
What is there to think.
There was no feeling.
There was no emotion.
Cos you have stop existing in my world.
I miss my good old pal.
I miss the old you.
I miss us.
But everything's in the past.
I have stop thinking.
I have stop missing.
Cos you have stop existing in my world.
Counting my blessings
Life has been great for me. Smooth-sailing and rather peaceful and serene.
However, my ex-student just passed away on Wednesday and I attended his wake on Saturday.
This incident stir so much emotion and make me reflect so much.
I still couldnt accept the fact that he has left. It seems like yesterday I was laughing and jokking with him in class.
When I went to his wake, the moment I see his photo, I couldnt control. I didnt expect myself to cry.
But I was not only tearing, I was weeping so terribly it was rather a scene and everyone was staring at me to see who is this girl look. I guess their look tell me they are wondering how I am related to the deceased. Now that I am relating this, I cant help but tears again. I may not know him well, but I miss him. I think he has a very cute personality and he was no doubt my favourite student.
Coincidently, just as I was weeping like a baby, my dear alex appeared. I was so sad, I have this urge to run towards him and just hide myself in his arms. It reminds me of the day when I got my "A" results and he was just there for me and hug me tightly when I was crying away in his arms like a baby. Those were the times I felt so protected. For a moment, I miss alex. I miss him as my greatest pal. If we didnt screw up our friendship, he would have been my best guy friend for life.
That make me wonder. Life and death is like such a delicate thin line. I am wondering how will it be like if I have to live like there is no tomorrow. I just want my loved ones and my friends to know I love them very much and that they have been a huge part of my life. Me & my badminton kakis were talking about how blessed I am to be so pampered by so many people. I know I am very blessed and I definitely treasure all my friends. Even though noone understands why there are so many people out there who dote on me so much and pamper me so much when I am so mean, demanding and unreasonable and yet everyone love me all the same unconditionally.
Strange huh?! Like how Pukey put it, being demanding and treated unreasonably by me is an exclusivity cos any attention from me is an exclusive treatment as if I dont give a damn about someone, I really dont bother at all. Pretty true but nonetheless it doesnt explain why there are so many sadist (like how B2 like to put it that way) out there who love me very much.
Like how I whack my ear super hard with my badminton racket on friday, Shan has to run all the way home to get me ice. & all she got was scolding from me for taking blardy long rather than a "thank you". To top that up, I make her change seats in the car jus so she could hold the bag of ice for me to ice my ears cos I am simply tired to hold it myself. & She did just that without any question. I feel loved!!
Also, like how all my guy friends always have time for me despite all their busy schedule with their gfs. I think I have not told you before puree. I have this guy friend who met me for supper one night after my long presentation day knowing I haven eaten my dinner. We went to eat prata at Upper Thomson. All i have to do is sit there & eat. He ordered all the food for me and I was so lazy to do anything so he actually put all the plates and utensils nicely in front of me, open my canned drinks and cos I am too tired to cut my prata into bite size, he actually cut them for me. He even folded my sleeves for me cos I am so super chor lor. I think he is close to feeding me. If I told him I am too tired to move my hand to eat, I think he will feed me. wahahaha...my laziness!! End up, I just have to sit there and he paid for my supper when he didnt eat at all. I wonder how I meet such friends. tsk tsk....
I also have a friend who curse & swear if anyone call him while he is sleeping. I always do jus that to annoy him but when it comes to me, he never even dare raise his voice at me. In fact, whenever he is around, I never have to drive cos he will always fetch me around.
I am really blessed and I couldnt ask for more. I really appreciate everything that all my friends have done for me. I am not complaining at all. I am really counting my blessing. If anything happen to me tomorrow, I just want all my friends to know I know how much they love me. That's all that matter.
However, my ex-student just passed away on Wednesday and I attended his wake on Saturday.
This incident stir so much emotion and make me reflect so much.
I still couldnt accept the fact that he has left. It seems like yesterday I was laughing and jokking with him in class.
When I went to his wake, the moment I see his photo, I couldnt control. I didnt expect myself to cry.
But I was not only tearing, I was weeping so terribly it was rather a scene and everyone was staring at me to see who is this girl look. I guess their look tell me they are wondering how I am related to the deceased. Now that I am relating this, I cant help but tears again. I may not know him well, but I miss him. I think he has a very cute personality and he was no doubt my favourite student.
Coincidently, just as I was weeping like a baby, my dear alex appeared. I was so sad, I have this urge to run towards him and just hide myself in his arms. It reminds me of the day when I got my "A" results and he was just there for me and hug me tightly when I was crying away in his arms like a baby. Those were the times I felt so protected. For a moment, I miss alex. I miss him as my greatest pal. If we didnt screw up our friendship, he would have been my best guy friend for life.
That make me wonder. Life and death is like such a delicate thin line. I am wondering how will it be like if I have to live like there is no tomorrow. I just want my loved ones and my friends to know I love them very much and that they have been a huge part of my life. Me & my badminton kakis were talking about how blessed I am to be so pampered by so many people. I know I am very blessed and I definitely treasure all my friends. Even though noone understands why there are so many people out there who dote on me so much and pamper me so much when I am so mean, demanding and unreasonable and yet everyone love me all the same unconditionally.
Strange huh?! Like how Pukey put it, being demanding and treated unreasonably by me is an exclusivity cos any attention from me is an exclusive treatment as if I dont give a damn about someone, I really dont bother at all. Pretty true but nonetheless it doesnt explain why there are so many sadist (like how B2 like to put it that way) out there who love me very much.
Like how I whack my ear super hard with my badminton racket on friday, Shan has to run all the way home to get me ice. & all she got was scolding from me for taking blardy long rather than a "thank you". To top that up, I make her change seats in the car jus so she could hold the bag of ice for me to ice my ears cos I am simply tired to hold it myself. & She did just that without any question. I feel loved!!
Also, like how all my guy friends always have time for me despite all their busy schedule with their gfs. I think I have not told you before puree. I have this guy friend who met me for supper one night after my long presentation day knowing I haven eaten my dinner. We went to eat prata at Upper Thomson. All i have to do is sit there & eat. He ordered all the food for me and I was so lazy to do anything so he actually put all the plates and utensils nicely in front of me, open my canned drinks and cos I am too tired to cut my prata into bite size, he actually cut them for me. He even folded my sleeves for me cos I am so super chor lor. I think he is close to feeding me. If I told him I am too tired to move my hand to eat, I think he will feed me. wahahaha...my laziness!! End up, I just have to sit there and he paid for my supper when he didnt eat at all. I wonder how I meet such friends. tsk tsk....
I also have a friend who curse & swear if anyone call him while he is sleeping. I always do jus that to annoy him but when it comes to me, he never even dare raise his voice at me. In fact, whenever he is around, I never have to drive cos he will always fetch me around.
I am really blessed and I couldnt ask for more. I really appreciate everything that all my friends have done for me. I am not complaining at all. I am really counting my blessing. If anything happen to me tomorrow, I just want all my friends to know I know how much they love me. That's all that matter.
Monday, June 4, 2007
enjoying my days in St James
I am really enjoying my time at st james working as marketing intern. My colleagues are really nice and they are so willing to teach me. I like how they always look out for me. I am glad I have so much things to do and I am involved in so many things. Every day is a different day and I am thoroughly enjoying it.
I am glad how my boss actually leave me to do alot of things on my own and trust me to do them except giving quotations. She actually msg me to ask my colleague stuffs instead of asking them directly. It may not mean much but it means alot to me. She also openly praise me today in front of all my colleagues how everyone should learn from me.
Whatever in her hand, she will throw me everything to read on my own and expect me to know at my fingertips. She will just send me all the emails & info. & I have to go around to ask if I dont know what it is or what is going on. It is only my third day & I have a private meeting with my boss to discuss a few things which my colleagues are not involved. She even gives me a mini project to do on my own.
I am supposed to come up with a sale pitch kit for st james marketing so that next time they can use that presentation to all the clients. I am supposed to do it on my own. & I am given such tasks on my third day. I feel great!! Hopefully, by next week, I can start doing quotation and handle event on my own. That is the goal I am gonna set for myself. The challenge is adrenaline pumping!
So I had a drink with my colleague after work today while waiting for my friend to come find me. I found out that I have free entry and unlimited soft drinks and 2 free alcoholic drinks per day. I also found out that I can bring my friends in for free and drink for free. All can be sign under entertainment. But I think it is not very nice to abuse it la though my colleague is nice enough to sign it for me if my friends come. I think I can still enjoy staff discount if I foot the bill. Well! Friends you can come find me after my work at st james to chill out. They really have great music. Free entry before 9pm everyday anyway. Plus drinks is on my house. So come visit me when you miss me or when you wanna see me yah. Movida and Bellini Room are my favourite. They have Live entertainment. Bellini Room is for jazz. I like....
My friend was underage la. But I manage to bring him in and even show him around all 9 outlets plus a mug of beer.
Stupid B2, I know you are on the top list to visit me. I know it is not cos u miss me but cos u always making use of me. EDIOT!
I am glad how my boss actually leave me to do alot of things on my own and trust me to do them except giving quotations. She actually msg me to ask my colleague stuffs instead of asking them directly. It may not mean much but it means alot to me. She also openly praise me today in front of all my colleagues how everyone should learn from me.
Whatever in her hand, she will throw me everything to read on my own and expect me to know at my fingertips. She will just send me all the emails & info. & I have to go around to ask if I dont know what it is or what is going on. It is only my third day & I have a private meeting with my boss to discuss a few things which my colleagues are not involved. She even gives me a mini project to do on my own.
I am supposed to come up with a sale pitch kit for st james marketing so that next time they can use that presentation to all the clients. I am supposed to do it on my own. & I am given such tasks on my third day. I feel great!! Hopefully, by next week, I can start doing quotation and handle event on my own. That is the goal I am gonna set for myself. The challenge is adrenaline pumping!
So I had a drink with my colleague after work today while waiting for my friend to come find me. I found out that I have free entry and unlimited soft drinks and 2 free alcoholic drinks per day. I also found out that I can bring my friends in for free and drink for free. All can be sign under entertainment. But I think it is not very nice to abuse it la though my colleague is nice enough to sign it for me if my friends come. I think I can still enjoy staff discount if I foot the bill. Well! Friends you can come find me after my work at st james to chill out. They really have great music. Free entry before 9pm everyday anyway. Plus drinks is on my house. So come visit me when you miss me or when you wanna see me yah. Movida and Bellini Room are my favourite. They have Live entertainment. Bellini Room is for jazz. I like....
My friend was underage la. But I manage to bring him in and even show him around all 9 outlets plus a mug of beer.
Stupid B2, I know you are on the top list to visit me. I know it is not cos u miss me but cos u always making use of me. EDIOT!
I got a job!
Guess by now almost everyone has known about the so called "good news".
Well! I went for interview on Friday right. I was really freaking nervous since this is one of the job I was really keen on taking it up. I was so nervous, I was 45min early for interview. Being directly opposite the building where B2 is working and there was some time before 9am, so decided to call B2. Even though all you do was laughed at me cos I was nervous, nonetheless I appreciated your precious 15min to talk to me. Even though you didnt help or try to do anything to calm my nerve, I am still grateful for being there for me. It means alot to me. Thanks B2 for being such a great friend who has been there for me all these while going through the tough time and having so much faith in me that I will find a job. Also, thanks for always coming out to meet me to listen to all my complaints about my annoying parents.
Well! I dont understand why would people find it amusing that I do get nervous. I am wondering if in the eyes of my friends, I am some strong robot who is really incapable of any form of emotion. They find it amusing that I get nervous or lose confidence in myself. FAINT! Hello?! I am just an ordinary girl in an ordinary world, you know. Give me a break man!!
Anyhow, so I was super early la. When I went up to the office, not many employees are in the office. Well! my interviewer was still not there yet. Supposed to go for 930 interview. By the time, I was interviewed, it was 1015. By then I have waited 1.5 hour that I felt sian already. So I was totally not nervous at all. Guess it helps huh? I was trying so hard to smile since when im feeling sian, i will tend to give the kao bei look.
I must say I am really very very blessed. I guess all my prayers are answered. Thanks everyone who has wish me all the best. I really appreciate it. The interview went so smoothly and too well. My interviewer came out and she was so nice and apologetic for making me wait so long. She didn't ask me much questions. The only question she asked & I answered was "what kind of position are you looking at in Apex Pal?" So direct eh. Then I told her I want to be "Business Development Manager" eventually. Then she started going through my career path and my job scope as I start work. Then that's it. She is talking as though I am already offered a job and this is what I need to do. Can you do it? You can. Good. you know that kind of interview. Like so blardy easy. I mean dont they have to ask or find out if I am up for the job. I prepared so hard for the interview but nothing was asked. Kaoz! Like where is the challenge sia.
So now I have to start from scratch since I have zero experience in F&B. So they are going to make me spend at least 3-6mths at one sakae sushi outlet to learn about operation side. FAINT! I really cant imagine serving customer knowing my own attitude problem. But I told myself it is a good training ground for me afterall to learn that I am not a princess afterall in the real world. Sigh! & to top it up, the lady kept saying cos she is due for delivery (she is pregnant) next week, she will be on leave. But she told me if I have anything, I can look for her colleague (which she went to find just to intro to me). If I really need to find her, I can still email her. SO nice right? She told me it is going to be real tough months being Mgmt Associate. She said alot of the regional managers now also walked through the same path with tears. That really make me alittle apprehensive. But I am never going to give in to challenges. That's the spirit. Also, my interviewer asked me if the outlet they assigned me is alright with me. I almost fainted. I feel like I am the one calling the shot rather than being interviewed. They are fine with when I wanna start with them. Even interview time was decided by me except the delay. They must be desperately looking for people to work for them.
The pay is super duper low though. To think that I rejected an offer of $2500 initially for this job which is giving me $1800. KAOZ!!!!! But nvm. I just felt alittle unhappy cos I felt that my value is so low. So in short, I got a job! I am not particularly happy nor excited. I was like neutral. I dont know why nowadays, I am kinda incapable of emotions. I guess I just felt relieved that i found a job & i dont have to take any shit from my family anymore.
So pals. Thanks for having faith in me, believeing in me, encouraging me, being there for me, giving me all the moral support all these while when self-doubt creep in. I really appreciate it. Now dont worry. I can finally support myself? Hopefully with this miserable salary. hahaha....
Well! I went for interview on Friday right. I was really freaking nervous since this is one of the job I was really keen on taking it up. I was so nervous, I was 45min early for interview. Being directly opposite the building where B2 is working and there was some time before 9am, so decided to call B2. Even though all you do was laughed at me cos I was nervous, nonetheless I appreciated your precious 15min to talk to me. Even though you didnt help or try to do anything to calm my nerve, I am still grateful for being there for me. It means alot to me. Thanks B2 for being such a great friend who has been there for me all these while going through the tough time and having so much faith in me that I will find a job. Also, thanks for always coming out to meet me to listen to all my complaints about my annoying parents.
Well! I dont understand why would people find it amusing that I do get nervous. I am wondering if in the eyes of my friends, I am some strong robot who is really incapable of any form of emotion. They find it amusing that I get nervous or lose confidence in myself. FAINT! Hello?! I am just an ordinary girl in an ordinary world, you know. Give me a break man!!
Anyhow, so I was super early la. When I went up to the office, not many employees are in the office. Well! my interviewer was still not there yet. Supposed to go for 930 interview. By the time, I was interviewed, it was 1015. By then I have waited 1.5 hour that I felt sian already. So I was totally not nervous at all. Guess it helps huh? I was trying so hard to smile since when im feeling sian, i will tend to give the kao bei look.
I must say I am really very very blessed. I guess all my prayers are answered. Thanks everyone who has wish me all the best. I really appreciate it. The interview went so smoothly and too well. My interviewer came out and she was so nice and apologetic for making me wait so long. She didn't ask me much questions. The only question she asked & I answered was "what kind of position are you looking at in Apex Pal?" So direct eh. Then I told her I want to be "Business Development Manager" eventually. Then she started going through my career path and my job scope as I start work. Then that's it. She is talking as though I am already offered a job and this is what I need to do. Can you do it? You can. Good. you know that kind of interview. Like so blardy easy. I mean dont they have to ask or find out if I am up for the job. I prepared so hard for the interview but nothing was asked. Kaoz! Like where is the challenge sia.
So now I have to start from scratch since I have zero experience in F&B. So they are going to make me spend at least 3-6mths at one sakae sushi outlet to learn about operation side. FAINT! I really cant imagine serving customer knowing my own attitude problem. But I told myself it is a good training ground for me afterall to learn that I am not a princess afterall in the real world. Sigh! & to top it up, the lady kept saying cos she is due for delivery (she is pregnant) next week, she will be on leave. But she told me if I have anything, I can look for her colleague (which she went to find just to intro to me). If I really need to find her, I can still email her. SO nice right? She told me it is going to be real tough months being Mgmt Associate. She said alot of the regional managers now also walked through the same path with tears. That really make me alittle apprehensive. But I am never going to give in to challenges. That's the spirit. Also, my interviewer asked me if the outlet they assigned me is alright with me. I almost fainted. I feel like I am the one calling the shot rather than being interviewed. They are fine with when I wanna start with them. Even interview time was decided by me except the delay. They must be desperately looking for people to work for them.
The pay is super duper low though. To think that I rejected an offer of $2500 initially for this job which is giving me $1800. KAOZ!!!!! But nvm. I just felt alittle unhappy cos I felt that my value is so low. So in short, I got a job! I am not particularly happy nor excited. I was like neutral. I dont know why nowadays, I am kinda incapable of emotions. I guess I just felt relieved that i found a job & i dont have to take any shit from my family anymore.
So pals. Thanks for having faith in me, believeing in me, encouraging me, being there for me, giving me all the moral support all these while when self-doubt creep in. I really appreciate it. Now dont worry. I can finally support myself? Hopefully with this miserable salary. hahaha....
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