Counting my blessings

Life has been great for me. Smooth-sailing and rather peaceful and serene.
However, my ex-student just passed away on Wednesday and I attended his wake on Saturday.
This incident stir so much emotion and make me reflect so much.
I still couldnt accept the fact that he has left. It seems like yesterday I was laughing and jokking with him in class.

When I went to his wake, the moment I see his photo, I couldnt control. I didnt expect myself to cry.
But I was not only tearing, I was weeping so terribly it was rather a scene and everyone was staring at me to see who is this girl look. I guess their look tell me they are wondering how I am related to the deceased. Now that I am relating this, I cant help but tears again. I may not know him well, but I miss him. I think he has a very cute personality and he was no doubt my favourite student.

Coincidently, just as I was weeping like a baby, my dear alex appeared. I was so sad, I have this urge to run towards him and just hide myself in his arms. It reminds me of the day when I got my "A" results and he was just there for me and hug me tightly when I was crying away in his arms like a baby. Those were the times I felt so protected. For a moment, I miss alex. I miss him as my greatest pal. If we didnt screw up our friendship, he would have been my best guy friend for life.

That make me wonder. Life and death is like such a delicate thin line. I am wondering how will it be like if I have to live like there is no tomorrow. I just want my loved ones and my friends to know I love them very much and that they have been a huge part of my life. Me & my badminton kakis were talking about how blessed I am to be so pampered by so many people. I know I am very blessed and I definitely treasure all my friends. Even though noone understands why there are so many people out there who dote on me so much and pamper me so much when I am so mean, demanding and unreasonable and yet everyone love me all the same unconditionally.

Strange huh?! Like how Pukey put it, being demanding and treated unreasonably by me is an exclusivity cos any attention from me is an exclusive treatment as if I dont give a damn about someone, I really dont bother at all. Pretty true but nonetheless it doesnt explain why there are so many sadist (like how B2 like to put it that way) out there who love me very much.

Like how I whack my ear super hard with my badminton racket on friday, Shan has to run all the way home to get me ice. & all she got was scolding from me for taking blardy long rather than a "thank you". To top that up, I make her change seats in the car jus so she could hold the bag of ice for me to ice my ears cos I am simply tired to hold it myself. & She did just that without any question. I feel loved!!

Also, like how all my guy friends always have time for me despite all their busy schedule with their gfs. I think I have not told you before puree. I have this guy friend who met me for supper one night after my long presentation day knowing I haven eaten my dinner. We went to eat prata at Upper Thomson. All i have to do is sit there & eat. He ordered all the food for me and I was so lazy to do anything so he actually put all the plates and utensils nicely in front of me, open my canned drinks and cos I am too tired to cut my prata into bite size, he actually cut them for me. He even folded my sleeves for me cos I am so super chor lor. I think he is close to feeding me. If I told him I am too tired to move my hand to eat, I think he will feed me. wahahaha...my laziness!! End up, I just have to sit there and he paid for my supper when he didnt eat at all. I wonder how I meet such friends. tsk tsk....

I also have a friend who curse & swear if anyone call him while he is sleeping. I always do jus that to annoy him but when it comes to me, he never even dare raise his voice at me. In fact, whenever he is around, I never have to drive cos he will always fetch me around.

I am really blessed and I couldnt ask for more. I really appreciate everything that all my friends have done for me. I am not complaining at all. I am really counting my blessing. If anything happen to me tomorrow, I just want all my friends to know I know how much they love me. That's all that matter.