In a flash 2007 has officially whipped past us without slightest hint.
2007 also spells the end to freedom that come with being just a plain university student who always have a choice of whether or not I feel like going to school or I feel like doing the work or just feel lk watching tv all day long.
2007 also means the start of working life and adulthood where life seems just complicated.
As you can see I didnt particularly fancy 2007. Specifically the second half of 2007.
That was also the time when all my good friends are gone and I am kinda just stuck with a person called bf.
Having a lot of free time also make me more sticky towards that particular bf who doesnt seem to have as much time as I do.
I am glad I managed to live past it.
(The only day that really made me felt good in end 2007 was when I met up with the trio for a short while.)
Today spelt one of the happiest day ever since my graduation last year.
My best friend, B2 is back!
Couldnt express more how happy I was.
Just spending the entire afternoon with him eating bah ku teh n having starbuck was just pure life pleasure.
Listening to all his europe stories was simply plesant making me reminisce my time in europe 2 years ago.
For awhile I felt like i have secretly escape from reality.
Thats why I like chilling out with good old friends.
They exude this nice warm sense of familiarity n security.
Just comfortable talking about all the random things.
Laughing off everything n just updating about one another's life.
I must say I really miss my friend very much.
& i am glad he is back.
Even though that means life is gonna be more exasperating and annoying, somehow it felt only right.
Looking forward to another happy day in 2008, 21 Jan where the love of my life will finally return to my side!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Siem Reap Cambodia
In case for those few who are worried about me missing in action.....
I am perfectly fine and alive AND MUCH HAPPIER...
As easily pleased and contented as I always am, I am just very pleased with my 3 days holidays in Siem Reap, Cambodia last week with significant someone.
Far from our expectation, Siem Reap is a small city yet extremely clean from the sterotypical image of third world country.
Except the dusty road which I still like it very much.
Nice chilling town. The weather was extremely nice. Between 24degree to 15 degree.
It wasnt a nice surprise though since I only brought all my 3/4 pants and only one jacket to wear on the plane as I was expecting super hot scorching sun.
I like the slow pace of this city. We saw more tourists than locals and there were hardly much crowds around in the city center except the famous Angkor Wat. I like how it is not so commercialized even though sadly the entire city is encore on tourism. Vast difference from the neighbouring countries, these cambodians dont understand the theory behind making business unlike the cunning Chinese. When a few kids followed you to sell you any merchandise and you politely say no, they just walked away with diginity. They would not pester you.
The only thing I dislike is the way they openly asked for tips. Not rude but come as unexpected from our part. Tips are meant to be given on our own accord when a customer is pleased with your service. It is not something you asked openly. Nonetheless understanding their culture where their day to day survival depends on tips, they just have to take a bet.
We spent 2 whole days in Angkor Wat vicinity. Life is great. I love the tuk tuk ride. I love exploring around the anicent architecture and the ruins. If Rome and Anthen are praised for their enchanting beauty than Angkor Wat's magnificent presence should be much more magnified. It was indeed breathtaking though somewhat disappointing cos it is just a hollow architecture as much of its inner content would have been removed from its premises to prevent looting. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every single moment spent there though I am sitting down 70% of the journey cos I have really bad stamina.
We spent a great deal of money there. But it was way worth it. Hotel was excellent with a nice pool view and 2 huge beds as well as great location! I was spoilt and pampered greatly when he brought me to dine in this elegantly posh restaurant that really blow our budget away. In the first place, he didnt really set any budget cos he really wanna pamper me since it is our holidays. We spent US$100 over at the restaurant for 2 solid meals. I swear it was the best fusion food I ever had. For someone who never believe in fusion food, this restaurant named FCC makes my knee weaks with their delicacy. The chef really understands the wonder of both the western taste and asian flavour that fuse so wonderfully together. It was an amazing art of dishses. Even though one hearty great meal costs about US$15 in Siem Reap, this was way worth it in comparison to the kind of meal we get in S'pore. Even if we are willing to pay such amount, we could never have savour such heavenly taste.
The first dish to die for was the succulently crispy and yet juicy pork belly with scallop in a mixture of sweet sour thai salad alike. The scallop is the miniature abalone type than the white plain tasteless ones. Next dish was clams in coconut cream was a taste buding ticklingly appetizing. Followed by to die for confit of duck with poached pear. The best duck leg dish I ever eaten was in Barcelona and I was always yearning for it. It really makes me reminise my time in Spain. But boy! This dish really melt my heart and I would pay the airfare and the hotel accommodation just to fly all the way to eat that duck leg. While he is extremely delighted with his favourite Lamb chop. We were so pleased. For desserts, though they were not as creative, it still wrapped up the meal so nicely. That is FCC! I am in the midst of contacting the director or the chef to jointly open a restaurant in Singapore so all my loved one could enjoy the same good taste.
Our last night restuarant was another romantic hangout. The decor was in simple red and white with a tinge of asian woody essence and modern zen yet carrying a flavour of european romance. We had a traditional Khmer food in the best setting. I must say we were extremely lucky to chance upon such nice restaurants. It was way beyond what we could ever ask for in this trip.
Thinking back on the trip, it still makes me feel so dreamy and elated. I am just in the mood for holidays. But for now I have to work hard to earn more money so I can go more trips like this. He has been extremely lovely and tolerant. I am amazed how someone could tolerate my nonsense. I could be pretty annoying most of the time when he is absorbing the best of the scenery, I could be sitting down in one corner, pulling a long face, sulking and whinning cos I was tired. I was really a big attention seeking baby. (I really find all my friends amazing for how they have withstand my annoying stances all these years). He was extremely patient and never once raise his voice. He also let me do whatever I want like let me go for massage, buy me gifts I pointed and claimed I need to buy, having a meal for more than 2 hours cos i claimed I am tired to chew my food, drinking coconut juices only at stalls with exhorbitant prices in Angkor Wat cos I just feel like it. In short, he just let me have my way and just pay for everything at the back. It was amazing how he supported me even though I was real bitchy most of the time. Incredulous!
It was a nice and happy moment watching sunset on top of the stupa. Chilling out looking over the entire greenery of Siem Reap and chatting over our past and sharing stories. The fun and bumpy tuk tuk rides. The slow and romantic dinners. All were nice and it was definitely more than I ask for. Somehow the trip makes me feel as though our bond has strengthen and I am starting to have faith in him and in us.
Thanks for loving me this much and keeping me real happy. ;)
P.S Check out the photos on facebook!
I am perfectly fine and alive AND MUCH HAPPIER...
As easily pleased and contented as I always am, I am just very pleased with my 3 days holidays in Siem Reap, Cambodia last week with significant someone.
Far from our expectation, Siem Reap is a small city yet extremely clean from the sterotypical image of third world country.
Except the dusty road which I still like it very much.
Nice chilling town. The weather was extremely nice. Between 24degree to 15 degree.
It wasnt a nice surprise though since I only brought all my 3/4 pants and only one jacket to wear on the plane as I was expecting super hot scorching sun.
I like the slow pace of this city. We saw more tourists than locals and there were hardly much crowds around in the city center except the famous Angkor Wat. I like how it is not so commercialized even though sadly the entire city is encore on tourism. Vast difference from the neighbouring countries, these cambodians dont understand the theory behind making business unlike the cunning Chinese. When a few kids followed you to sell you any merchandise and you politely say no, they just walked away with diginity. They would not pester you.
The only thing I dislike is the way they openly asked for tips. Not rude but come as unexpected from our part. Tips are meant to be given on our own accord when a customer is pleased with your service. It is not something you asked openly. Nonetheless understanding their culture where their day to day survival depends on tips, they just have to take a bet.
We spent 2 whole days in Angkor Wat vicinity. Life is great. I love the tuk tuk ride. I love exploring around the anicent architecture and the ruins. If Rome and Anthen are praised for their enchanting beauty than Angkor Wat's magnificent presence should be much more magnified. It was indeed breathtaking though somewhat disappointing cos it is just a hollow architecture as much of its inner content would have been removed from its premises to prevent looting. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every single moment spent there though I am sitting down 70% of the journey cos I have really bad stamina.
We spent a great deal of money there. But it was way worth it. Hotel was excellent with a nice pool view and 2 huge beds as well as great location! I was spoilt and pampered greatly when he brought me to dine in this elegantly posh restaurant that really blow our budget away. In the first place, he didnt really set any budget cos he really wanna pamper me since it is our holidays. We spent US$100 over at the restaurant for 2 solid meals. I swear it was the best fusion food I ever had. For someone who never believe in fusion food, this restaurant named FCC makes my knee weaks with their delicacy. The chef really understands the wonder of both the western taste and asian flavour that fuse so wonderfully together. It was an amazing art of dishses. Even though one hearty great meal costs about US$15 in Siem Reap, this was way worth it in comparison to the kind of meal we get in S'pore. Even if we are willing to pay such amount, we could never have savour such heavenly taste.
The first dish to die for was the succulently crispy and yet juicy pork belly with scallop in a mixture of sweet sour thai salad alike. The scallop is the miniature abalone type than the white plain tasteless ones. Next dish was clams in coconut cream was a taste buding ticklingly appetizing. Followed by to die for confit of duck with poached pear. The best duck leg dish I ever eaten was in Barcelona and I was always yearning for it. It really makes me reminise my time in Spain. But boy! This dish really melt my heart and I would pay the airfare and the hotel accommodation just to fly all the way to eat that duck leg. While he is extremely delighted with his favourite Lamb chop. We were so pleased. For desserts, though they were not as creative, it still wrapped up the meal so nicely. That is FCC! I am in the midst of contacting the director or the chef to jointly open a restaurant in Singapore so all my loved one could enjoy the same good taste.
Our last night restuarant was another romantic hangout. The decor was in simple red and white with a tinge of asian woody essence and modern zen yet carrying a flavour of european romance. We had a traditional Khmer food in the best setting. I must say we were extremely lucky to chance upon such nice restaurants. It was way beyond what we could ever ask for in this trip.
Thinking back on the trip, it still makes me feel so dreamy and elated. I am just in the mood for holidays. But for now I have to work hard to earn more money so I can go more trips like this. He has been extremely lovely and tolerant. I am amazed how someone could tolerate my nonsense. I could be pretty annoying most of the time when he is absorbing the best of the scenery, I could be sitting down in one corner, pulling a long face, sulking and whinning cos I was tired. I was really a big attention seeking baby. (I really find all my friends amazing for how they have withstand my annoying stances all these years). He was extremely patient and never once raise his voice. He also let me do whatever I want like let me go for massage, buy me gifts I pointed and claimed I need to buy, having a meal for more than 2 hours cos i claimed I am tired to chew my food, drinking coconut juices only at stalls with exhorbitant prices in Angkor Wat cos I just feel like it. In short, he just let me have my way and just pay for everything at the back. It was amazing how he supported me even though I was real bitchy most of the time. Incredulous!
It was a nice and happy moment watching sunset on top of the stupa. Chilling out looking over the entire greenery of Siem Reap and chatting over our past and sharing stories. The fun and bumpy tuk tuk rides. The slow and romantic dinners. All were nice and it was definitely more than I ask for. Somehow the trip makes me feel as though our bond has strengthen and I am starting to have faith in him and in us.
Thanks for loving me this much and keeping me real happy. ;)
P.S Check out the photos on facebook!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Parents are getting out of hand these days
My self-denying dad still thinks he is damn smart.
He is up to no good I am very sure.
He suddenly comes up with this new rule that all are to attend his birthday celebration this year.
If he wants ALL attendance I dont really understand why the attention on ME.
That portrays loophole.
I know he is using this as an excuse to force me to go back to meet that daRn bald 33 years man with a belly.
Disgusting thought!
To think my parents are resorting to such underhand method. Lowly!
My mom has been advertising & advertising.
How can u guaranteed someone's upright and doting on gf character just on A very superficial encounter.
& I cant believe they are pushing for him when his dad is an arrogant bastard.
Typical chinese old man who thinks he is the richest man on earth so he doesnt have to give a shit about anyone.
I am extremely ashamed of my parents desperation.
I am also disappointed in them for having so no faith that I can find a man on my own ability.
Ok! Maybe they are entitled to their worries since I aint proving much in these aspect.
Whatever!
He is up to no good I am very sure.
He suddenly comes up with this new rule that all are to attend his birthday celebration this year.
If he wants ALL attendance I dont really understand why the attention on ME.
That portrays loophole.
I know he is using this as an excuse to force me to go back to meet that daRn bald 33 years man with a belly.
Disgusting thought!
To think my parents are resorting to such underhand method. Lowly!
My mom has been advertising & advertising.
How can u guaranteed someone's upright and doting on gf character just on A very superficial encounter.
& I cant believe they are pushing for him when his dad is an arrogant bastard.
Typical chinese old man who thinks he is the richest man on earth so he doesnt have to give a shit about anyone.
I am extremely ashamed of my parents desperation.
I am also disappointed in them for having so no faith that I can find a man on my own ability.
Ok! Maybe they are entitled to their worries since I aint proving much in these aspect.
Whatever!
Money aint everything? I doubt it
A close of friend of mine exclaimed that I am materialistic.
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
Life is getting draggy nowadays. Even though routine life ensures security, but it does breed boredom.
Life aint exciting at all nor much to look forward to except the end of a work day.
I am in the mood for holidays now and have no desire to work or whatsoever.
Even though I will be flying off to Siem Reap for a short break on 29 Nov, I am not really looking forward to it.
The anxiety and excitment have somehow been overwhelmed by the fear that it might not be a pleasant trip.
Reflecting back, I realize I have very min level of trust in others.
Maybe it is connected to the notion that I know I am independent enough to settle anything on my own.
Ended up, giving others no chance to do things their way but instead insist on my own way.
When people dont take what I say seriously, I get real irritated and exasperated trying to tell them what to do.
That's me. Demanding and unreasonable. Always thinking im right.
Hard to rely on him when he doesnt seem to lift much effort to plan for OUR holidays.
Even though I hate planning for things, I dont wanna screw it up either.
So ended up, reluctantly I start planning cos it is my only holidays of the year.
I know you hate to plan too. But I guess sometimes you just have to give and take and show some effort you care.
Without such hints and actions, it is hard to convince myself of your love for me.
I really love holidays.
I have promised myself to work hard to earn more money and go for more holidays in years to come.
Life aint exciting at all nor much to look forward to except the end of a work day.
I am in the mood for holidays now and have no desire to work or whatsoever.
Even though I will be flying off to Siem Reap for a short break on 29 Nov, I am not really looking forward to it.
The anxiety and excitment have somehow been overwhelmed by the fear that it might not be a pleasant trip.
Reflecting back, I realize I have very min level of trust in others.
Maybe it is connected to the notion that I know I am independent enough to settle anything on my own.
Ended up, giving others no chance to do things their way but instead insist on my own way.
When people dont take what I say seriously, I get real irritated and exasperated trying to tell them what to do.
That's me. Demanding and unreasonable. Always thinking im right.
Hard to rely on him when he doesnt seem to lift much effort to plan for OUR holidays.
Even though I hate planning for things, I dont wanna screw it up either.
So ended up, reluctantly I start planning cos it is my only holidays of the year.
I know you hate to plan too. But I guess sometimes you just have to give and take and show some effort you care.
Without such hints and actions, it is hard to convince myself of your love for me.
I really love holidays.
I have promised myself to work hard to earn more money and go for more holidays in years to come.
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Best friends are forever - Truth indeed
Woke up this morning, feeling real grouchy.
I just felt real lonely.
Suddenly I am overwhelmed with the massive feel of being alone on my own where all my good friends are overseas.
It dawn on me that I am really missing my 2 best friends Jacey Gray and B2.
I miss them so much, I think I am going crazy.
I am kinda breaking down slowly.
Even though I have portrayed such independence, i came to realization how much emotionally attached I am to my friends.
People I really cant live without.
There was just one night where things didnt really go alright with me & him.
Came home and went online to find B2 who came on msn to say hi.
That instant I miss him so much and somehow the thoughts of knowing there is someone whom I can always count on bring tears to my eyes. Sometimes moral support really is just the presence.
Like how he is somehow always there when I need someone to turn to.
For example, today news! I very much wish I could confide in him.
I would very much wish I could seek comfort in him.
Yet he is too sick to talk to me.
Somehow we always have such hit and misses.
I am not disappointed but rather getting used to.
Guess to start with I wasnt expecting him to be there always to listen to me or give me reassurance whenever I need it.
Rather it has always been my best friend who is around.
It was rather heartwarming to see B2 online the moment I came home.
I rattle on n on about my work.
Though he never help make me feel better, his presence jus make me more settled.
I guess such come with a strong bond between old friends and I am real blessed to have that.
I am glad I always know that good old friends are the one whom u can count on ultimately in your life that grows old with you.
For now I just miss my 2 best friends so so much, I wish I could just give them a long tight hug without saying a word when I first see them when they return home. I think I might cry. cos just the thought of it bring warmth to my eyes.
I just felt real lonely.
Suddenly I am overwhelmed with the massive feel of being alone on my own where all my good friends are overseas.
It dawn on me that I am really missing my 2 best friends Jacey Gray and B2.
I miss them so much, I think I am going crazy.
I am kinda breaking down slowly.
Even though I have portrayed such independence, i came to realization how much emotionally attached I am to my friends.
People I really cant live without.
There was just one night where things didnt really go alright with me & him.
Came home and went online to find B2 who came on msn to say hi.
That instant I miss him so much and somehow the thoughts of knowing there is someone whom I can always count on bring tears to my eyes. Sometimes moral support really is just the presence.
Like how he is somehow always there when I need someone to turn to.
For example, today news! I very much wish I could confide in him.
I would very much wish I could seek comfort in him.
Yet he is too sick to talk to me.
Somehow we always have such hit and misses.
I am not disappointed but rather getting used to.
Guess to start with I wasnt expecting him to be there always to listen to me or give me reassurance whenever I need it.
Rather it has always been my best friend who is around.
It was rather heartwarming to see B2 online the moment I came home.
I rattle on n on about my work.
Though he never help make me feel better, his presence jus make me more settled.
I guess such come with a strong bond between old friends and I am real blessed to have that.
I am glad I always know that good old friends are the one whom u can count on ultimately in your life that grows old with you.
For now I just miss my 2 best friends so so much, I wish I could just give them a long tight hug without saying a word when I first see them when they return home. I think I might cry. cos just the thought of it bring warmth to my eyes.
The First Step
The time has come for me to make my move.
I was just been told this afternoon that I am being transferred out to an outlet from tomorrow onwards which I have to take charge from now on. Well! Many would be happy to hear such news. In simple terms, it is sorta promotion and something all managers work towards with. To have an outlet on their own when they can be the boss. In term of responsiblity, it is a high new level.
Nonetheless, I just dont feel good about it. In fact very heavy hearted when I should be making merry and celebrating instead. I have to admit, the progress has been real fast but im not complaining cos finally i have to take on some real challenge. Yet ironically as much as I am looking forward to this day, I feel apprehensive about it. Probably, I dont really like the outlet I am being in charge of. Been there once. I dont like the layout to start with. I dont really agree the way they do things there and best of all, I dont particularly think their working attitude and culture is great.
Finally time for me to prove my ability and yet it is crazy cos the outlet has been functioning on its own with some great seniors working at that outlet. The staff there has at least been with the company for some 3years to 5 years. So me being a newbie with the company for less than 3months with no prior work experience to this, it is kinda very challenging to manage them and improve things for the better. Yet if i just absorb into their culture and not make any changes then I am not proving my worth nor contributing to the outlet which I am supposed to be there for. Gonna be real crazy challenge and I am kinda stressed over it.
Background on the outlet. It is kinda like a lost child operating on its own world and culture. Probably explains why management decided they need a makeover and someone outside gotta do it. It is the only outlet which is not under an area mgr and report directly to Operation Director. Thats also good cos that means i would have more easy access to the director. Nonetheless, I really HATE the fucker in charge now cos he is so fucking cocky when he is so blardy short and anal. Noone really like him. (God has been fair. His shortie probably make up for he being so anal.) But apparently, he has resigned and will be leaving next week. Thats good news! I cant imagine working with such asshole.
At the back of all the good news, one cant help feel emotional. I just adapted to my old outlets, get along real well with my colleagues and getting real happy working and they have to throw me into an open cold water. BIG SIGH! I am so missing the people at my outlet already. They have been real sweet and nice to me. I know I have people to support me at the back to correct my mistake when i screw things up. There is people to take my shit and teach me the rope. Basically, even people to cheer me up when I am frowning up whipping up some fantastic food or even buying me drinks. I love people who dote on me and treat me like princess. I was a jewel in my old outlet. Now I am gonna turn into a total bitch in the new outlet.
Kaoz! I have to quit acting innocence and take real responsiblity when things screw up which happen all the time. SIGH SIGH SIGH...
I was just been told this afternoon that I am being transferred out to an outlet from tomorrow onwards which I have to take charge from now on. Well! Many would be happy to hear such news. In simple terms, it is sorta promotion and something all managers work towards with. To have an outlet on their own when they can be the boss. In term of responsiblity, it is a high new level.
Nonetheless, I just dont feel good about it. In fact very heavy hearted when I should be making merry and celebrating instead. I have to admit, the progress has been real fast but im not complaining cos finally i have to take on some real challenge. Yet ironically as much as I am looking forward to this day, I feel apprehensive about it. Probably, I dont really like the outlet I am being in charge of. Been there once. I dont like the layout to start with. I dont really agree the way they do things there and best of all, I dont particularly think their working attitude and culture is great.
Finally time for me to prove my ability and yet it is crazy cos the outlet has been functioning on its own with some great seniors working at that outlet. The staff there has at least been with the company for some 3years to 5 years. So me being a newbie with the company for less than 3months with no prior work experience to this, it is kinda very challenging to manage them and improve things for the better. Yet if i just absorb into their culture and not make any changes then I am not proving my worth nor contributing to the outlet which I am supposed to be there for. Gonna be real crazy challenge and I am kinda stressed over it.
Background on the outlet. It is kinda like a lost child operating on its own world and culture. Probably explains why management decided they need a makeover and someone outside gotta do it. It is the only outlet which is not under an area mgr and report directly to Operation Director. Thats also good cos that means i would have more easy access to the director. Nonetheless, I really HATE the fucker in charge now cos he is so fucking cocky when he is so blardy short and anal. Noone really like him. (God has been fair. His shortie probably make up for he being so anal.) But apparently, he has resigned and will be leaving next week. Thats good news! I cant imagine working with such asshole.
At the back of all the good news, one cant help feel emotional. I just adapted to my old outlets, get along real well with my colleagues and getting real happy working and they have to throw me into an open cold water. BIG SIGH! I am so missing the people at my outlet already. They have been real sweet and nice to me. I know I have people to support me at the back to correct my mistake when i screw things up. There is people to take my shit and teach me the rope. Basically, even people to cheer me up when I am frowning up whipping up some fantastic food or even buying me drinks. I love people who dote on me and treat me like princess. I was a jewel in my old outlet. Now I am gonna turn into a total bitch in the new outlet.
Kaoz! I have to quit acting innocence and take real responsiblity when things screw up which happen all the time. SIGH SIGH SIGH...
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