Life is getting draggy nowadays. Even though routine life ensures security, but it does breed boredom.
Life aint exciting at all nor much to look forward to except the end of a work day.

I am in the mood for holidays now and have no desire to work or whatsoever.

Even though I will be flying off to Siem Reap for a short break on 29 Nov, I am not really looking forward to it.
The anxiety and excitment have somehow been overwhelmed by the fear that it might not be a pleasant trip.

Reflecting back, I realize I have very min level of trust in others.
Maybe it is connected to the notion that I know I am independent enough to settle anything on my own.
Ended up, giving others no chance to do things their way but instead insist on my own way.
When people dont take what I say seriously, I get real irritated and exasperated trying to tell them what to do.
That's me. Demanding and unreasonable. Always thinking im right.

Hard to rely on him when he doesnt seem to lift much effort to plan for OUR holidays.
Even though I hate planning for things, I dont wanna screw it up either.
So ended up, reluctantly I start planning cos it is my only holidays of the year.
I know you hate to plan too. But I guess sometimes you just have to give and take and show some effort you care.
Without such hints and actions, it is hard to convince myself of your love for me.

I really love holidays.
I have promised myself to work hard to earn more money and go for more holidays in years to come.