Money aint everything? I doubt it

A close of friend of mine exclaimed that I am materialistic.
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.

Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.

Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.

Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!

Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.

Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.

I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY

Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.

PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!