The First Step

The time has come for me to make my move.
I was just been told this afternoon that I am being transferred out to an outlet from tomorrow onwards which I have to take charge from now on. Well! Many would be happy to hear such news. In simple terms, it is sorta promotion and something all managers work towards with. To have an outlet on their own when they can be the boss. In term of responsiblity, it is a high new level.

Nonetheless, I just dont feel good about it. In fact very heavy hearted when I should be making merry and celebrating instead. I have to admit, the progress has been real fast but im not complaining cos finally i have to take on some real challenge. Yet ironically as much as I am looking forward to this day, I feel apprehensive about it. Probably, I dont really like the outlet I am being in charge of. Been there once. I dont like the layout to start with. I dont really agree the way they do things there and best of all, I dont particularly think their working attitude and culture is great.

Finally time for me to prove my ability and yet it is crazy cos the outlet has been functioning on its own with some great seniors working at that outlet. The staff there has at least been with the company for some 3years to 5 years. So me being a newbie with the company for less than 3months with no prior work experience to this, it is kinda very challenging to manage them and improve things for the better. Yet if i just absorb into their culture and not make any changes then I am not proving my worth nor contributing to the outlet which I am supposed to be there for. Gonna be real crazy challenge and I am kinda stressed over it.

Background on the outlet. It is kinda like a lost child operating on its own world and culture. Probably explains why management decided they need a makeover and someone outside gotta do it. It is the only outlet which is not under an area mgr and report directly to Operation Director. Thats also good cos that means i would have more easy access to the director. Nonetheless, I really HATE the fucker in charge now cos he is so fucking cocky when he is so blardy short and anal. Noone really like him. (God has been fair. His shortie probably make up for he being so anal.) But apparently, he has resigned and will be leaving next week. Thats good news! I cant imagine working with such asshole.

At the back of all the good news, one cant help feel emotional. I just adapted to my old outlets, get along real well with my colleagues and getting real happy working and they have to throw me into an open cold water. BIG SIGH! I am so missing the people at my outlet already. They have been real sweet and nice to me. I know I have people to support me at the back to correct my mistake when i screw things up. There is people to take my shit and teach me the rope. Basically, even people to cheer me up when I am frowning up whipping up some fantastic food or even buying me drinks. I love people who dote on me and treat me like princess. I was a jewel in my old outlet. Now I am gonna turn into a total bitch in the new outlet.

Kaoz! I have to quit acting innocence and take real responsiblity when things screw up which happen all the time. SIGH SIGH SIGH...