My self-denying dad still thinks he is damn smart.
He is up to no good I am very sure.
He suddenly comes up with this new rule that all are to attend his birthday celebration this year.
If he wants ALL attendance I dont really understand why the attention on ME.
That portrays loophole.
I know he is using this as an excuse to force me to go back to meet that daRn bald 33 years man with a belly.
Disgusting thought!
To think my parents are resorting to such underhand method. Lowly!
My mom has been advertising & advertising.
How can u guaranteed someone's upright and doting on gf character just on A very superficial encounter.
& I cant believe they are pushing for him when his dad is an arrogant bastard.
Typical chinese old man who thinks he is the richest man on earth so he doesnt have to give a shit about anyone.
I am extremely ashamed of my parents desperation.
I am also disappointed in them for having so no faith that I can find a man on my own ability.
Ok! Maybe they are entitled to their worries since I aint proving much in these aspect.
Whatever!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Money aint everything? I doubt it
A close of friend of mine exclaimed that I am materialistic.
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
Life is getting draggy nowadays. Even though routine life ensures security, but it does breed boredom.
Life aint exciting at all nor much to look forward to except the end of a work day.
I am in the mood for holidays now and have no desire to work or whatsoever.
Even though I will be flying off to Siem Reap for a short break on 29 Nov, I am not really looking forward to it.
The anxiety and excitment have somehow been overwhelmed by the fear that it might not be a pleasant trip.
Reflecting back, I realize I have very min level of trust in others.
Maybe it is connected to the notion that I know I am independent enough to settle anything on my own.
Ended up, giving others no chance to do things their way but instead insist on my own way.
When people dont take what I say seriously, I get real irritated and exasperated trying to tell them what to do.
That's me. Demanding and unreasonable. Always thinking im right.
Hard to rely on him when he doesnt seem to lift much effort to plan for OUR holidays.
Even though I hate planning for things, I dont wanna screw it up either.
So ended up, reluctantly I start planning cos it is my only holidays of the year.
I know you hate to plan too. But I guess sometimes you just have to give and take and show some effort you care.
Without such hints and actions, it is hard to convince myself of your love for me.
I really love holidays.
I have promised myself to work hard to earn more money and go for more holidays in years to come.
Life aint exciting at all nor much to look forward to except the end of a work day.
I am in the mood for holidays now and have no desire to work or whatsoever.
Even though I will be flying off to Siem Reap for a short break on 29 Nov, I am not really looking forward to it.
The anxiety and excitment have somehow been overwhelmed by the fear that it might not be a pleasant trip.
Reflecting back, I realize I have very min level of trust in others.
Maybe it is connected to the notion that I know I am independent enough to settle anything on my own.
Ended up, giving others no chance to do things their way but instead insist on my own way.
When people dont take what I say seriously, I get real irritated and exasperated trying to tell them what to do.
That's me. Demanding and unreasonable. Always thinking im right.
Hard to rely on him when he doesnt seem to lift much effort to plan for OUR holidays.
Even though I hate planning for things, I dont wanna screw it up either.
So ended up, reluctantly I start planning cos it is my only holidays of the year.
I know you hate to plan too. But I guess sometimes you just have to give and take and show some effort you care.
Without such hints and actions, it is hard to convince myself of your love for me.
I really love holidays.
I have promised myself to work hard to earn more money and go for more holidays in years to come.
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