It finally dawned on me 2 days ago that I think Eujin had something for me back then 4 years ago.
Cos somehow I figure out of the blue after alot of strange encounter these days.
Kinda explained why he backed out suddenly the min he found out about me & alex.
He must had felt so shattered.
The only way he could get out of that heartbreak was to push me away, get me out of his life so he could move on with his.
Sigh....Why didnt he tell me how he felt?
Why didn't he give me a chance to make my own choice?
Though I know his good & noble intention.
One is his very good friend. Another is his dearest angel who was the only girl whom he brought home.
He chose to give his blessing indeed.
But all his effort went to waste cos things never work out between me & alex.
I wonder what life would be like if eujin was in it.
He was so thoughtful and caring.
I also wonder who would I have chosen if I had the freedom of choice.
Now I am really wondering why do I always get stuck in triangle.
WHY WHY WHY?!
Is this how heaven punishing me?
Or is Pukey so right that I am a fox spirit?
Why cant I love freely?
Why do I always have to incur someone unhappiness to build my own happiness?
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4 comments:
y dont u think of it this way... too many ppl love u... but u cant love everyone of them back.. so inevitably u have to cause some broken heart... haha!
i would have preferred eujin to b the one u went out wit instead of alex.. eujin juz seems to b more mature i think..
haha! nice one pukey!
I know I would have been more blissful and well taken care of with eujin...but alex was the one who melt my heart with all his sarcrifices. No doubt about it. Till today he made me feel real guilty.
One thing I jus dont understand is why would anyone love me so much & so dearly when im freaking mean, evil, demanding and unreasonable? seriously, what has the world comes to with so many sadist?
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