I am back from Chennai since Monday. Yes! I am still alive but not kicking very much.
Shall update on my indian trip when I have the time.

Had a mega huge event last night. I am totally drained out and thoroughly exhausted.
Till now my head is spinning. Nonetheless, I am not complaining really. I am just merely updating what is going on in my life and what I have been up to.

I am just feeling really overwhelmed now. Maybe because of 2 tiring weeks with no break in between and top it up with Chennai trip. I could feel my body has physically stopped working. I just feel really .......... I can even find the right word to express how I am feeling. I dont understand how it is very hard for people to treat me like just an ordinary girl. I am not a super woman. Neither am I an iron lady. I have my own limits too. I am not a goddness either. & i know no magic. So stop expecting me to be damn strong and that I can handle whatever come my way cos like it or not there are times I cant. Just because I am not showing or breaking down like some cry baby doesnt differentiate me from the emotions and suffering that they go through.

Why do people think I am strong? I really dont understand. They think my ability is limitless? They expect me to show no emotion? It is even strange to them that I would ever feel nervous, weak or breaking down? So you mean I am not even entitled to feel? No matter what you may say about me being heartless or heart made of stone, I do have the right to my feeling? I am a human being basically and thats all everyone should know about me. ARGH!

I am not complaining that I am working hard & it has been crazy. But I just hope people (read parents) will understand you cant expect me to shoulder EVERYTHING. At work, I am doing many people job sometimes. It is even crazier that I still have to think about my dad's work and his company as well as planning for the entire future direction of his company together with his management. THIS IS INSANE! Yet I will still do it. However, it would be nice if these people could have some common sense that I am not at the mercy of their call. Dont expect me to be there just cos you clap. Blaming you if things go wrong even if it was not your fault and when you do things smoothly, they never give you credit for it let alone reward you just cos this is something you should do. You dont have to appreciate me for what I have done for you. All I need is just basic common sense that I am a human being with feelings and limit.

I am overworked and felt really overwhelmed. I dont know how long I could last. Maybe being locked up in asylum wouldnt be a bad thing afterall. At least I would have my well-deserved break. I need to call up UN for human right!