Karma - what goes around comes around

For the most insignificant person in my life, the infamous B2, I stayed up despite the fatigue from the long day I had, to join facebook just so I can be updated with his travel photo journal since he is so lazy to post them on his blog anymore. That's how insignificant he has been to my life for me to go through such trouble for him all the time like how he never fails to exasperate me to death with his slacking lifestyle and how he is the only one who made me wait blardy patiently for 45min without a slightest tinge of apology.

So I was browsing through and chance upon his facebook. It is never a good idea to look see anything in case u chance upon what u may wish u have never seen. I saw a very happy photo with him and his lovely ex. That moment the feeling of guilt just returned. I am reminded of how horrible I am to come in between them (in a way). The thought of my happy moments were exchanged from someone else's misery irks me real badly. I believe in karma. I believe what goes around comes around.

Even though one may argue he doesnt belong to her anymore but that doesnt mean I am allowed to 'snatch' what is not hers? This is so not right.

If it were not for me, they would have been happily going out.
If it were not for me, they would have been studying in school together till late.
If it were not for me, they would have been going home together everyday.
If it were not for me, she would have been still spending happy times with him.
If it were not for me, she would have been a happier person.

It is so hard for me to overlook all these. People claim love is selfish. But I never believe in it for I believe love is giving.

Afterall I am still not ready.
Afterall I still have no faith in relationship.

I wonder what I am doing is right.
I wonder if I should correct what is not right.

I am just so sick of all these.
Maybe I should just give up.