DaRn! I am not good enough?!

Well...was busy preparing for L'Oreal interview the past weeks doing case study and presentation slides. After 2 intensive round of interview, I was informed yesterday that I am not selected. hmmm.........

Frankly speaking, I am extremely disappointed. I know I have tried my best and I am very confident of my performance. I may sound cocky but I think I am good enough for the position. However, it seems like it that somehow I am not good enough. I have no idea the reason why I am not selected. It feels real sucky. I am not going to live with consolation that maybe it is a blessing in disguise. BULLSHIT! Neither am i going to resign with the fact that I am not good enough. It was definitely not a good way to start someone's career with such disappointment. Such a horrible feeling!

I know I will get over it. I know I will be strong but somehow I just cant swollow it down. Whether or not I want the job is secondary but not being selected is damn demoralizing. Sometimes I really wonder if I really have what it takes. I wonder if all my confidence is pure inflated ego with no substance. I wonder if I am competent enough to strike it out on my own. Suddenly alot of thoughts gush into my head and I dont even know how to face myself.