Despite all these emotional torture and ongoing saga that my parents have perfected to stage,
I am feeling all calm now and in fact blissful.
Simply because I know you are here to walk this path with me together.
Thanks for simply the man in my life.
Thanks for tolerating all my bad temper.
Thanks for trying real hard to be sweet.
Thanks for always making me smile.
Thanks for bringing me out.
Thanks for making me special.
Thanks simply for just by my side and being a huge part of my life.
Thanks for loving me for goods and esp the bads.
You have been more than kind to learn to accept me for all the horrible me that I have always been.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
I believe in LOVE
I believe in love.
I finally do.
I have to admit it wasnt easy for us to be together.
It wasnt the typical love tale where we had a honeymoon period when we first hit it off.
It definitely wasnt.
Our first path was filled with heartache n failure.
However, all these effort have finally paid off.
Now I feel like im on honeymoon with him.
We've settled down very much.
We started off with nothing.
No faith. No hope.
Now I have absolute faith in him that he is the one to give me happiness.
I guess that's hope in itself speaking for our future.
It is very encouraging how we have matured together.
It is very endearing how we have become stronger and more giving towards one another.
No doubt he has changed alot for me & vice versa.
I guess what we solidly have is communication.
It involves a listening ear and willingness to share.
Something we both embrace.
Through all these, we have learnt we aint exactly someone we can live with but definitely we cant live without each other.
We have grown to realize we meant alot to one another.
When this happens, you treasure one another more.
More determined to be together no matter what it takes.
Through all these, we find strength in one another and that we are not gonna give up on one another.
It may sound cliche when ppl says u know he is the one when u see it.
I vouch to it now.
I know he is THE ONE for me. I just know it.
Though everything seem wrong, but we just felt right.
We have more to overcome and we are definitely embracing it together.
It isnt gonna be easy trying to get approval from my parents.
But we are staying firm on our ground.
We are going to be together no matter what it may takes.
I finally do.
I have to admit it wasnt easy for us to be together.
It wasnt the typical love tale where we had a honeymoon period when we first hit it off.
It definitely wasnt.
Our first path was filled with heartache n failure.
However, all these effort have finally paid off.
Now I feel like im on honeymoon with him.
We've settled down very much.
We started off with nothing.
No faith. No hope.
Now I have absolute faith in him that he is the one to give me happiness.
I guess that's hope in itself speaking for our future.
It is very encouraging how we have matured together.
It is very endearing how we have become stronger and more giving towards one another.
No doubt he has changed alot for me & vice versa.
I guess what we solidly have is communication.
It involves a listening ear and willingness to share.
Something we both embrace.
Through all these, we have learnt we aint exactly someone we can live with but definitely we cant live without each other.
We have grown to realize we meant alot to one another.
When this happens, you treasure one another more.
More determined to be together no matter what it takes.
Through all these, we find strength in one another and that we are not gonna give up on one another.
It may sound cliche when ppl says u know he is the one when u see it.
I vouch to it now.
I know he is THE ONE for me. I just know it.
Though everything seem wrong, but we just felt right.
We have more to overcome and we are definitely embracing it together.
It isnt gonna be easy trying to get approval from my parents.
But we are staying firm on our ground.
We are going to be together no matter what it may takes.
What's next for me?
Been really yeons ago since i last updated.
I've finally 'graduated' from operation side n I am moving on to management level.
I had my last day at my outlet yesterday.
I must say it was definitely not an easy route n I doubt anyone of my peers can withstand such grilling groundwork.
Amidst all these, I felt satisfied with my performance n it kinda built my confidence further to pursue much bigger n greater things in life
At least I can put all my achievement down black n white on paper.
My outlet's sales have been soaring high ever since I headed it.
I am proud of it! cos before that marina square sales was going down before i join.
Now I am giving them min constant sales which was not seen earlier.
& I did that with less n less resources everyday.
It wasnt easy for me to manage people who are way beyond my seniors too.
I have no prior experience & I am very young.
But Hey! To date, I have gained respect and I have dealt with all my staff.
It was very heartwarming to know staff who are initially not very open are not confiding in me.
With all these I have done touching in little way I can in my staff's working life and my regular customers alike,
finally I am promoted back to Headquarter.
Of cos I have a final exam. That was to have a 2 hour interview session with none other than the CEO, Douglas Foo the man.
It was grilling long hours! cos apparently the boss handpick all Business Development Manager.
Doing rotation now back in HQ. Hopefully im posted out of sg by end of yr if not earlier.
Its gonna be tiring but secretly im excited.
Well! at least im doing 9-5 job! Hopefully more weekend n time for my friends n my beau.
But its gonna be shitty reporting to work damn early!
I am never a 9-5 person.
Lets look at the bright side of the picture! I'll be getting my payrise as well.
Apparently, I made myself heard n i demand for them to match up my salary. Well! They did!
Should have asked for more if i know im gonna be selected by Douglas. Like at least 4K...hahaha
CHEERS to my next stage in my career!
Many apologies to those whom i have neglected the past few months!
I've finally 'graduated' from operation side n I am moving on to management level.
I had my last day at my outlet yesterday.
I must say it was definitely not an easy route n I doubt anyone of my peers can withstand such grilling groundwork.
Amidst all these, I felt satisfied with my performance n it kinda built my confidence further to pursue much bigger n greater things in life
At least I can put all my achievement down black n white on paper.
My outlet's sales have been soaring high ever since I headed it.
I am proud of it! cos before that marina square sales was going down before i join.
Now I am giving them min constant sales which was not seen earlier.
& I did that with less n less resources everyday.
It wasnt easy for me to manage people who are way beyond my seniors too.
I have no prior experience & I am very young.
But Hey! To date, I have gained respect and I have dealt with all my staff.
It was very heartwarming to know staff who are initially not very open are not confiding in me.
With all these I have done touching in little way I can in my staff's working life and my regular customers alike,
finally I am promoted back to Headquarter.
Of cos I have a final exam. That was to have a 2 hour interview session with none other than the CEO, Douglas Foo the man.
It was grilling long hours! cos apparently the boss handpick all Business Development Manager.
Doing rotation now back in HQ. Hopefully im posted out of sg by end of yr if not earlier.
Its gonna be tiring but secretly im excited.
Well! at least im doing 9-5 job! Hopefully more weekend n time for my friends n my beau.
But its gonna be shitty reporting to work damn early!
I am never a 9-5 person.
Lets look at the bright side of the picture! I'll be getting my payrise as well.
Apparently, I made myself heard n i demand for them to match up my salary. Well! They did!
Should have asked for more if i know im gonna be selected by Douglas. Like at least 4K...hahaha
CHEERS to my next stage in my career!
Many apologies to those whom i have neglected the past few months!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
am only glad u r back, it just felt right
In a flash 2007 has officially whipped past us without slightest hint.
2007 also spells the end to freedom that come with being just a plain university student who always have a choice of whether or not I feel like going to school or I feel like doing the work or just feel lk watching tv all day long.
2007 also means the start of working life and adulthood where life seems just complicated.
As you can see I didnt particularly fancy 2007. Specifically the second half of 2007.
That was also the time when all my good friends are gone and I am kinda just stuck with a person called bf.
Having a lot of free time also make me more sticky towards that particular bf who doesnt seem to have as much time as I do.
I am glad I managed to live past it.
(The only day that really made me felt good in end 2007 was when I met up with the trio for a short while.)
Today spelt one of the happiest day ever since my graduation last year.
My best friend, B2 is back!
Couldnt express more how happy I was.
Just spending the entire afternoon with him eating bah ku teh n having starbuck was just pure life pleasure.
Listening to all his europe stories was simply plesant making me reminisce my time in europe 2 years ago.
For awhile I felt like i have secretly escape from reality.
Thats why I like chilling out with good old friends.
They exude this nice warm sense of familiarity n security.
Just comfortable talking about all the random things.
Laughing off everything n just updating about one another's life.
I must say I really miss my friend very much.
& i am glad he is back.
Even though that means life is gonna be more exasperating and annoying, somehow it felt only right.
Looking forward to another happy day in 2008, 21 Jan where the love of my life will finally return to my side!
2007 also spells the end to freedom that come with being just a plain university student who always have a choice of whether or not I feel like going to school or I feel like doing the work or just feel lk watching tv all day long.
2007 also means the start of working life and adulthood where life seems just complicated.
As you can see I didnt particularly fancy 2007. Specifically the second half of 2007.
That was also the time when all my good friends are gone and I am kinda just stuck with a person called bf.
Having a lot of free time also make me more sticky towards that particular bf who doesnt seem to have as much time as I do.
I am glad I managed to live past it.
(The only day that really made me felt good in end 2007 was when I met up with the trio for a short while.)
Today spelt one of the happiest day ever since my graduation last year.
My best friend, B2 is back!
Couldnt express more how happy I was.
Just spending the entire afternoon with him eating bah ku teh n having starbuck was just pure life pleasure.
Listening to all his europe stories was simply plesant making me reminisce my time in europe 2 years ago.
For awhile I felt like i have secretly escape from reality.
Thats why I like chilling out with good old friends.
They exude this nice warm sense of familiarity n security.
Just comfortable talking about all the random things.
Laughing off everything n just updating about one another's life.
I must say I really miss my friend very much.
& i am glad he is back.
Even though that means life is gonna be more exasperating and annoying, somehow it felt only right.
Looking forward to another happy day in 2008, 21 Jan where the love of my life will finally return to my side!
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
Siem Reap Cambodia
In case for those few who are worried about me missing in action.....
I am perfectly fine and alive AND MUCH HAPPIER...
As easily pleased and contented as I always am, I am just very pleased with my 3 days holidays in Siem Reap, Cambodia last week with significant someone.
Far from our expectation, Siem Reap is a small city yet extremely clean from the sterotypical image of third world country.
Except the dusty road which I still like it very much.
Nice chilling town. The weather was extremely nice. Between 24degree to 15 degree.
It wasnt a nice surprise though since I only brought all my 3/4 pants and only one jacket to wear on the plane as I was expecting super hot scorching sun.
I like the slow pace of this city. We saw more tourists than locals and there were hardly much crowds around in the city center except the famous Angkor Wat. I like how it is not so commercialized even though sadly the entire city is encore on tourism. Vast difference from the neighbouring countries, these cambodians dont understand the theory behind making business unlike the cunning Chinese. When a few kids followed you to sell you any merchandise and you politely say no, they just walked away with diginity. They would not pester you.
The only thing I dislike is the way they openly asked for tips. Not rude but come as unexpected from our part. Tips are meant to be given on our own accord when a customer is pleased with your service. It is not something you asked openly. Nonetheless understanding their culture where their day to day survival depends on tips, they just have to take a bet.
We spent 2 whole days in Angkor Wat vicinity. Life is great. I love the tuk tuk ride. I love exploring around the anicent architecture and the ruins. If Rome and Anthen are praised for their enchanting beauty than Angkor Wat's magnificent presence should be much more magnified. It was indeed breathtaking though somewhat disappointing cos it is just a hollow architecture as much of its inner content would have been removed from its premises to prevent looting. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every single moment spent there though I am sitting down 70% of the journey cos I have really bad stamina.
We spent a great deal of money there. But it was way worth it. Hotel was excellent with a nice pool view and 2 huge beds as well as great location! I was spoilt and pampered greatly when he brought me to dine in this elegantly posh restaurant that really blow our budget away. In the first place, he didnt really set any budget cos he really wanna pamper me since it is our holidays. We spent US$100 over at the restaurant for 2 solid meals. I swear it was the best fusion food I ever had. For someone who never believe in fusion food, this restaurant named FCC makes my knee weaks with their delicacy. The chef really understands the wonder of both the western taste and asian flavour that fuse so wonderfully together. It was an amazing art of dishses. Even though one hearty great meal costs about US$15 in Siem Reap, this was way worth it in comparison to the kind of meal we get in S'pore. Even if we are willing to pay such amount, we could never have savour such heavenly taste.
The first dish to die for was the succulently crispy and yet juicy pork belly with scallop in a mixture of sweet sour thai salad alike. The scallop is the miniature abalone type than the white plain tasteless ones. Next dish was clams in coconut cream was a taste buding ticklingly appetizing. Followed by to die for confit of duck with poached pear. The best duck leg dish I ever eaten was in Barcelona and I was always yearning for it. It really makes me reminise my time in Spain. But boy! This dish really melt my heart and I would pay the airfare and the hotel accommodation just to fly all the way to eat that duck leg. While he is extremely delighted with his favourite Lamb chop. We were so pleased. For desserts, though they were not as creative, it still wrapped up the meal so nicely. That is FCC! I am in the midst of contacting the director or the chef to jointly open a restaurant in Singapore so all my loved one could enjoy the same good taste.
Our last night restuarant was another romantic hangout. The decor was in simple red and white with a tinge of asian woody essence and modern zen yet carrying a flavour of european romance. We had a traditional Khmer food in the best setting. I must say we were extremely lucky to chance upon such nice restaurants. It was way beyond what we could ever ask for in this trip.
Thinking back on the trip, it still makes me feel so dreamy and elated. I am just in the mood for holidays. But for now I have to work hard to earn more money so I can go more trips like this. He has been extremely lovely and tolerant. I am amazed how someone could tolerate my nonsense. I could be pretty annoying most of the time when he is absorbing the best of the scenery, I could be sitting down in one corner, pulling a long face, sulking and whinning cos I was tired. I was really a big attention seeking baby. (I really find all my friends amazing for how they have withstand my annoying stances all these years). He was extremely patient and never once raise his voice. He also let me do whatever I want like let me go for massage, buy me gifts I pointed and claimed I need to buy, having a meal for more than 2 hours cos i claimed I am tired to chew my food, drinking coconut juices only at stalls with exhorbitant prices in Angkor Wat cos I just feel like it. In short, he just let me have my way and just pay for everything at the back. It was amazing how he supported me even though I was real bitchy most of the time. Incredulous!
It was a nice and happy moment watching sunset on top of the stupa. Chilling out looking over the entire greenery of Siem Reap and chatting over our past and sharing stories. The fun and bumpy tuk tuk rides. The slow and romantic dinners. All were nice and it was definitely more than I ask for. Somehow the trip makes me feel as though our bond has strengthen and I am starting to have faith in him and in us.
Thanks for loving me this much and keeping me real happy. ;)
P.S Check out the photos on facebook!
I am perfectly fine and alive AND MUCH HAPPIER...
As easily pleased and contented as I always am, I am just very pleased with my 3 days holidays in Siem Reap, Cambodia last week with significant someone.
Far from our expectation, Siem Reap is a small city yet extremely clean from the sterotypical image of third world country.
Except the dusty road which I still like it very much.
Nice chilling town. The weather was extremely nice. Between 24degree to 15 degree.
It wasnt a nice surprise though since I only brought all my 3/4 pants and only one jacket to wear on the plane as I was expecting super hot scorching sun.
I like the slow pace of this city. We saw more tourists than locals and there were hardly much crowds around in the city center except the famous Angkor Wat. I like how it is not so commercialized even though sadly the entire city is encore on tourism. Vast difference from the neighbouring countries, these cambodians dont understand the theory behind making business unlike the cunning Chinese. When a few kids followed you to sell you any merchandise and you politely say no, they just walked away with diginity. They would not pester you.
The only thing I dislike is the way they openly asked for tips. Not rude but come as unexpected from our part. Tips are meant to be given on our own accord when a customer is pleased with your service. It is not something you asked openly. Nonetheless understanding their culture where their day to day survival depends on tips, they just have to take a bet.
We spent 2 whole days in Angkor Wat vicinity. Life is great. I love the tuk tuk ride. I love exploring around the anicent architecture and the ruins. If Rome and Anthen are praised for their enchanting beauty than Angkor Wat's magnificent presence should be much more magnified. It was indeed breathtaking though somewhat disappointing cos it is just a hollow architecture as much of its inner content would have been removed from its premises to prevent looting. Nonetheless, I enjoyed every single moment spent there though I am sitting down 70% of the journey cos I have really bad stamina.
We spent a great deal of money there. But it was way worth it. Hotel was excellent with a nice pool view and 2 huge beds as well as great location! I was spoilt and pampered greatly when he brought me to dine in this elegantly posh restaurant that really blow our budget away. In the first place, he didnt really set any budget cos he really wanna pamper me since it is our holidays. We spent US$100 over at the restaurant for 2 solid meals. I swear it was the best fusion food I ever had. For someone who never believe in fusion food, this restaurant named FCC makes my knee weaks with their delicacy. The chef really understands the wonder of both the western taste and asian flavour that fuse so wonderfully together. It was an amazing art of dishses. Even though one hearty great meal costs about US$15 in Siem Reap, this was way worth it in comparison to the kind of meal we get in S'pore. Even if we are willing to pay such amount, we could never have savour such heavenly taste.
The first dish to die for was the succulently crispy and yet juicy pork belly with scallop in a mixture of sweet sour thai salad alike. The scallop is the miniature abalone type than the white plain tasteless ones. Next dish was clams in coconut cream was a taste buding ticklingly appetizing. Followed by to die for confit of duck with poached pear. The best duck leg dish I ever eaten was in Barcelona and I was always yearning for it. It really makes me reminise my time in Spain. But boy! This dish really melt my heart and I would pay the airfare and the hotel accommodation just to fly all the way to eat that duck leg. While he is extremely delighted with his favourite Lamb chop. We were so pleased. For desserts, though they were not as creative, it still wrapped up the meal so nicely. That is FCC! I am in the midst of contacting the director or the chef to jointly open a restaurant in Singapore so all my loved one could enjoy the same good taste.
Our last night restuarant was another romantic hangout. The decor was in simple red and white with a tinge of asian woody essence and modern zen yet carrying a flavour of european romance. We had a traditional Khmer food in the best setting. I must say we were extremely lucky to chance upon such nice restaurants. It was way beyond what we could ever ask for in this trip.
Thinking back on the trip, it still makes me feel so dreamy and elated. I am just in the mood for holidays. But for now I have to work hard to earn more money so I can go more trips like this. He has been extremely lovely and tolerant. I am amazed how someone could tolerate my nonsense. I could be pretty annoying most of the time when he is absorbing the best of the scenery, I could be sitting down in one corner, pulling a long face, sulking and whinning cos I was tired. I was really a big attention seeking baby. (I really find all my friends amazing for how they have withstand my annoying stances all these years). He was extremely patient and never once raise his voice. He also let me do whatever I want like let me go for massage, buy me gifts I pointed and claimed I need to buy, having a meal for more than 2 hours cos i claimed I am tired to chew my food, drinking coconut juices only at stalls with exhorbitant prices in Angkor Wat cos I just feel like it. In short, he just let me have my way and just pay for everything at the back. It was amazing how he supported me even though I was real bitchy most of the time. Incredulous!
It was a nice and happy moment watching sunset on top of the stupa. Chilling out looking over the entire greenery of Siem Reap and chatting over our past and sharing stories. The fun and bumpy tuk tuk rides. The slow and romantic dinners. All were nice and it was definitely more than I ask for. Somehow the trip makes me feel as though our bond has strengthen and I am starting to have faith in him and in us.
Thanks for loving me this much and keeping me real happy. ;)
P.S Check out the photos on facebook!
Monday, November 19, 2007
Parents are getting out of hand these days
My self-denying dad still thinks he is damn smart.
He is up to no good I am very sure.
He suddenly comes up with this new rule that all are to attend his birthday celebration this year.
If he wants ALL attendance I dont really understand why the attention on ME.
That portrays loophole.
I know he is using this as an excuse to force me to go back to meet that daRn bald 33 years man with a belly.
Disgusting thought!
To think my parents are resorting to such underhand method. Lowly!
My mom has been advertising & advertising.
How can u guaranteed someone's upright and doting on gf character just on A very superficial encounter.
& I cant believe they are pushing for him when his dad is an arrogant bastard.
Typical chinese old man who thinks he is the richest man on earth so he doesnt have to give a shit about anyone.
I am extremely ashamed of my parents desperation.
I am also disappointed in them for having so no faith that I can find a man on my own ability.
Ok! Maybe they are entitled to their worries since I aint proving much in these aspect.
Whatever!
He is up to no good I am very sure.
He suddenly comes up with this new rule that all are to attend his birthday celebration this year.
If he wants ALL attendance I dont really understand why the attention on ME.
That portrays loophole.
I know he is using this as an excuse to force me to go back to meet that daRn bald 33 years man with a belly.
Disgusting thought!
To think my parents are resorting to such underhand method. Lowly!
My mom has been advertising & advertising.
How can u guaranteed someone's upright and doting on gf character just on A very superficial encounter.
& I cant believe they are pushing for him when his dad is an arrogant bastard.
Typical chinese old man who thinks he is the richest man on earth so he doesnt have to give a shit about anyone.
I am extremely ashamed of my parents desperation.
I am also disappointed in them for having so no faith that I can find a man on my own ability.
Ok! Maybe they are entitled to their worries since I aint proving much in these aspect.
Whatever!
Money aint everything? I doubt it
A close of friend of mine exclaimed that I am materialistic.
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
Maybe I have become more pragmatic these days.
Entering into the adult world has further irk on my already cynical mindset.
Money has never been a serious issue for me.
Worse come to worse was how to laid my hand on my favourite handbag or which handbag.
Somehow recently thoughts of being self-sustainable financially hit me real hard.
Thats when it dawn on me that I need a job that is well paid.
Ok! Maybe the financial sector that draw above 3K still doesnt appeal to me.
So I shall said fairly paid, not like the daRn Apex Pal which is underpaying me. BASKET!
I cant even afford my own set of daRn skin care products! Argh!
Beside the point, I realize that I cant possibly rely on my dad forever.
Given my pride and arrogance, it is hard to swallow for me to ask for my dad for money.
Then I realize I have graduated and grown up enough to support myself.
In fact, I have to start supporting myself.
My dad probably retires in 7 years.
By that time my bro barely finishing A Level.
Even if im not considering the fact that I have to be responsible for my siblings and my parents.
There will come a time when I have to settle down and start a family.
YES! I will get married! If not I still want my own children.
So all these mean money.
Of course ideal senario will be if I hitch on a handsome rich husband who dotes on me very much.
Then nothing to worry about.
Often love is blind. Whatever the case is, it is not about the money but the person involved that I am in love with.
I have to contribute somehow to the family planning.
House, car, bills, my fine dining expenses etc
Even if all these have been covered by my husband, I still need to be independent financially to finance my own shopping spree. The freedom to shop without having to look at anyone's face colour.
All these spells MONEY MONEY MONEY
Born with no notion of savings, I am really stuck in this cycle.
and the thought of future just scare me.
It adds on to the forbia of why I have extreme reaction to marriage or commitment. Geez!
Bottom line, as you grow old, you just start to become real materialistic, esp in sg.
Everything spells MONEY.
Now, it finally dawn on me that I need a high paying job.
PS. B2! Stop recommending me to pimp myself. BASKET!
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